Blog Entries tagged 'accepting its over'

Musn't grumble.

andrewcbaillie@msn.com — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I've absolutely no idea what I'm doing, or if anybody will either read or be interested in my blog, but sometimes in life one needs a place to scream - and I'm hoping this'll turn out to be the place for me to do it.

If this blog continues, I'm reckoning that things will kinda start slotting themselves into place, a sort of "self Counselling" service. So here goes, and sorry to any readers for any future ramblings!!

I need to talk about it, the whol [...]

Dreams and Hopes.

seannahardy@btinternet.com — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Today i have been described as 'being in a bad way' and feel a need to explain this.

I know you all know me as a bit of a joker but today the jokes dried up, and to those of you that this normally helps, I apologise.

I do not keep much track of dates but I awoke this morning to the realisation that in 6 days time I would have been emmigrating to the dream life I had planned with my ex over a period of 3 years. Everything was in place and I had even booked the project team [...]

Getting there - dare I hope?

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Mon, 25 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well after my self administered kick up the butt it appears to have worked a bit. Writing down everything I have got compared to the downside of losing an idiot who has caused me more hurt than anything ever was great. Still hurting but it made me see life goes on. Shame I wasted so many weeks sobbing and unable to do anything, but I am made of meaty stuff and made the decision yesterday that I have a life to get on with. I know there will be tough days ahead and I accept that but I have a gr [...]

reality kicks in

mishmine@yahoo.com — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Hi all.

had to get my thoughts down tonight.

been in floods of tears, just started falling and cudnt stop them, and im usually so stong and together, feels like its not really me.

got email froms sols today saying the affidavit I had done for deemed service had been accepted, (had to do this as he wudnt sign the acknowledgment).

so this is really happening. I feel really sad, and lonely and lost. and the tears fell, tears for the loss of my past life, and fears f [...]

Today.and i love you wiki

Daisyflower40@hotmail.co.uk — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

just wanna say Mr gorgeous Blogman and wiki pals and ok yeah I need to say this...

i love you..!!

you've been with me through thick and thin - that is right isnt it, thats the saying ??

today has been ok.....this am early was tough....got to work clare my friend asked how i was....eerrrrmmm dreading today - (she knows everything even about wiki and you lot.... ;-) )

"just get through today just get through today" that [...]

Stress, 1 st meeting with him face to face after he left

hanajohnstonova@hotmail.co.uk — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I have been dreading this day. I asked him to move out 2 months ago, after I discovered he is continuing with his affair. Did nos speak to him since, except for a few e-mails and texts.

Contacted him last week we need to discuss some issues before the school starts and before he goes on hols with his new partner.

Feeling stressed but not that bad. I know I have to stay calm and in control.

He is coming in the evening and I have my 2nd session with my hypnotherapist be [...]

Me again!

juliet.steven@tiscali.co.uk — Wed, 20 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Hello! Me again!

I have to admit that I'm not having a good day. Since my husband phoned earlier, I have been mostly miserable & tearful. I know that my last blog featured my annoyance at him wanting to change the day when he takes our son out, & this is still bugging me, but, in truth, I know that there is more to it than this for me.

If I'm brutally honest, my tears are also about the fact that he is going away with his girlfriend. Why does this cut me u [...]

a bad day again..help!

pinkymalmalred@yahoo.co.uk — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

well back from my holiday, and trying to keep things moving forward.. got the consent order giving me my right to the house proceeds and I am faltering and struggling.

Have forms to complete from the solicitor and forms to complete about the house sale,all needing to be done before house goes on the market.I am stalling, trying to find time to fill the damn forms in but just struggling with every day things at the moment.Keep feeling very tired and keep waking up at 4am, and then fallin [...]

Im struggling guys

Daisyflower40@hotmail.co.uk — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

hi to all my gorgeous wiki peeps..and of course Mr Blogman.

as you know its my wedding ann on friday, and im trying my best not to think about it, not to get upset, not to wonder about him, what he's thinking (is he ??)

i was having a chat with mum yesterday (she rings me everyday) and she said it was time i moved on !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mum how can you say that ?? god, she knows what its like........shes been there....

so moving on ?

my question [...]

My Computer Hates Me

wikivorce@sbainbridge.cix.co.uk — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Do Computers hate me ?

The laptop does, it waits until my blog is just completed and as I press the save and publish button but before it has saved it tells me to switch to mains power and then shuts down. A whole half hour or more of one fingered typing lost. If I could type with two fingers would the battery last half the time?

I would love to use mains power, but the mains adaptor is plumbed into the computer cupboar [...]

OMG what a day

donna.ogilvie@blueyonder.co.uk — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Am back again for a moan. My friend and her daughter were out for dinner tonight and who walked into the restaurant but my ex and his mistress. She gave them some verbal abuse and then immediately phoned me. I contacted my sister who managed to catch up with them and also gave them some abuse. Feel like crap now that I know she is here and they are openly flaunting their relationship. Aaaahhhh I hate him why did he have to do this to me and the kids. I can' [...]

Pray for rain ..... please!

steve@rigdens.wanadoo.co.uk — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Up and down, up and down and so it goes on.........

Finally finished the decorating yesterday, 6 coats of emulsion later (yes really - 6 coats!!) and the hall, stairs and landing are done ..... just dont look too close! Not a professional job by any means, but I did it myself, no help .... just me.

It was finished just in time for a visit from him! He was desperate to see the kids, they are giving him a hard time and not giving an inch in their quest to make him [...]

fish again sory !!

kevin.j.stevens@btinternet.com — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

only me again just like buses all at once !!!!

strangest day today need to finish off building work at family home while she on hols walked into house and felt really weird the house ive been renovating for 18yrs on and off youknow between having enough time and money didnt feel like my home anymore !!!!

which i think is a good thing but grrrrr hav to finish it !!! still a friend told me the sooner i get it done the better and their right because then i ca [...]

Need AK47 please

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Wow, totally winded now. How thnigs can change in a few hours. He texted a few times and then rang. Ooops he changed his mind again. No reconciliation, just friendship and sex on offer. Actually forced him to talk about barmaid and he now say they friends, mentioned re' all his friends thought they were a couple, he denied it again. He is feeling hard done by as he says it's alright for us women as we keep the family home, kids etc etc but the poor blokes lose everything. AW [...]

Improving now

andyrumble1@googlemail.com — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well, the loneliness is still there but the depression is clearing. I am now managing to work and to focus on a solution instead of drowning in the glooms!

I have decided to move to London to put some distance between me and my ex. If I don't, then she will continue to torture me and reel me back in every time it looks as if I am moving on. The downside is that I will be a long way from my children. But I can't stay here! My life is in London in every way. I know pe [...]

Happy Anniversary...

sarahjaneof2pv@msn.com — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

...12.15 and Happy 11 years married!! (together 22). Feel absolutely awful - 8 months since affair - much back and forth and last several weeks were making a go of if - not living together as he was not ready for that (me neither if truth be told) but seeing each other at weekends - v tense and although nice - obviously something missing (well no kissing etc as neither in mood) - but this situation wasnt working for me - and I felt in danger of it pushing us further apart.

This we [...]

22nd August and counting

Daisyflower40@hotmail.co.uk — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

My wedding anniversary......

Hi gorgeous Mr Blogman and wiki pals..

im dreading this week...why ?? because its my wedding anniversary friday...

i remember our last one, heaven, lovely dinner, lovely lovely wine....lovely summers even, and lovely restuarant.......

little did i know a year later, the barsteward would have upped and had an affair..

what am i going to do on friday ?

got the day off wk, simply cant go in, work reminds me of hi [...]

just me talkin 4 once !!!!

kevin.j.stevens@btinternet.com — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

i dont write blogs normally but just wanted to talk really , excuse the grammar there isnt any lol ! just so you lot know i`ve moved out of my family home about a month or so ago and into my flat

i feel so free now perhaps too free im loving my space but miss the structure in my life ! that i suppose is to be expected after 20yrs was the weddding annivesary on the 13th number 20 it would have been !!! was fine wiv that day thought i was going to be morbid and sad but [...]

My Soap Opera Life

clive@burroughs69.fsnet.co.uk — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

My wife and I have been together 8 years, married 7, happiest times of my life (or so I thought). Then I found out she had an affair with my"best friend", and moved out for six months, leaving me with our 2year old daughter. When that went pear shaped she came back, sorry for the mistake and we were going to make it work, but of course it had been my fault for driving her to him as I wasn't giving her the love and attention she deserves.

Then [...]

Ten steps backwards

memorcarpediem@yahoo.co.uk — Sun, 17 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Back to feeling rock bottom again. I thought I would be ok but after yesterdays panic I am emotionally back to being a complete mess again. I drank far too much last night as my head is a bad place to be and thought and tried to be good as in NO TEXTING!!!! Yeah right, did the begging ones.

When am i going to realise it is over. He is lying to me when he says things, I know now he wants his both lives, not just me. I gotta get it in my head he has moved on (he didn't deny barmaid w [...]