THE RESULTS ARE IN

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Thu, 07 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I don't have cancer.

The relief is enormous, I am sitting here bawling my eyes out.

I was so very worried, not just for me but for my family and friends, I had been going through insurances, the property paperwork, thinking of doing everything that might be needed in case they told me the worst.

I was lucky, the specialist was in today and asked me if I was agreeable to him doing the endoscopy, ( having the camera through my nose and down my throat) there and then.< [...]

WHAT MORE COULD YOU ASK FOR IN A DAY

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Tue, 05 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Today was a good day, I had a phone call from the womens refuge asking for help.

A lovely lady and her 4 children had to leave their home as the husband after being in a car accident had mental problems.

While she was out, he had gone through each room in the house and ripped, slashed and damaged every piece of furniture, he also slashed all the childrens and her clothes.

She fled with the children and the clothes they stood up in.

I have had numerous ladies over [...]

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Mon, 04 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Enough is enough, I know you have to face the battles to win the war but sometimes it really is too much.

After getting over Pippa dying (mostly anyway) I now have another battle to face.

I have had a bad throat infection for over 8 weeks, after seeing the doctors and the pills not doing anything, they have made an emergency appointment for me at the hospital.

They want to give me a few tests to see if it is cancerous, the doctor told me my chances are good 60/40.

I am sorry for any upset

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Mon, 21 Jul 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I am so sorry for any upset or misunderstanding that I might of caused anyone due to my blog.

As most will know from my profile there is a picture of Pippa there.

When I was told I could not have anymore children, Pippa was the child I could not have, she was and always will be my little girl.

In the world we live in, receiving unconditional love and affection is a rare and beautiful thing, mine though sad and stupid to most will seem, was from Pippa.

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The smile is back on my face

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Mon, 07 Jul 2008 01:00:00 +0100

This blog is for me to release some of the anxiety and worry I have been feeling for the last few days, as I dont want to worry my family.

My doctor, he's a kind sole who always gives and makes me smile, informed me on friday that my condition has worsened, due to my blood pressure being so high, my heart rate is nearly double what it should be and has been like this for over a year.

The worry over Pippa and the divorce is increasing my blood pressure to [...]

It can get better

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Sun, 29 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I just thought i would post a little note as life in general is getting better.

I would also like to thank all the people who have helped me through what at the time seemed like mountains to climb, with help from others they turned out to be only hills.

My little girl Pippa has more energy and life now she is off the pills and not having all the injections, I know she won't be with me for long as the cancer will take over, but I am happy that my little girl is not in pain and [...]

God have pity please

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Last night and today is one of the worst I have ever experienced, the love of my life Pippa was diagnosed with a tumour.

She has seen me over the last 12 years go through hell and back with my stbx, always offering a smile, cuddle and a wag. She has only just come out of surgery 2 weeks ago and now I have to make the decision on what is best for her, surgery and chemo or painkillers and let her go.

I've read up on the tumour which helps as I now know if it is stage [...]

Love Actually

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Hi, I thought I would write a quick blog as I have had a great night.

i started out feeling fed up, tired, angry etc as I had to help write my daughter Rachel's statement to give to my x's solicitors.

Now it is finished, yippee

I feel like a weight has been lifted just by finishing it, it's surprising how something as simple as a statement can drag you down.

I know a lot of people, myself included, have days when you just want to run away and try to f [...]

Being a mum is breaking my heart

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Thu, 05 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Please help.

I am usually an extremely strong person, I have had to be to survive, I don't cry when anyone is around as they need my strength during the day to see them through especially my daughter who is so kind and caring and offers me so much love.

I have waited until everyone is asleep and am now sat crying as I write, today I have been typing out my daughter Rachel's statement, she is 2nd respondant in my divorce as we have a property business together and to protec [...]

How can a dad do that?

dawn.hardie@hotmail.com — Tue, 27 May 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Well they day it comes in 3s, mine seems to just keep adding them on , sometimes you wonder if it ever stops.

I never knew someone could lie so blatently even in front of his own daughter, my daughter and I went to the first hearing and she was to be added as the 2nd respondant to protect her half in all the properties we have.

My stbx sat there and told the court that my daughter should not be added as she had never put any money into the business (lie) and never worked on any o [...]

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