Blog Entries for moonstar04

A New Begining or is it????

kimmii@btinternet.com — Tue, 11 Dec 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Well after two days and over 4 hours of interview time I have been offered a new job !!!

Well done...............Congratulations I can hear you all say..............or is it????

Why do I not feel elated at the prospect of a fab new job and new adventure in my life........................maybe it is because I now have just 21 days to turn my life upside down and start again as I start in January !!!

21 days to leave the marital home, fin [...]

A Glimer of Hope !

kimmii@btinternet.com — Thu, 29 Nov 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Had a phone call yesterday from my ex boss, who was ringing to tell me I am being head hunted for a job that may be coming up in the not too distant future and would I be interested??

I picked myself up off the floor I replied "Yes".

After all the doom and gloom of the past week or so the glimer of hope is on the horizion maybe x

When you feel you are at rock bottom it is amazing how quickly some good vibes can spring you out of the doom and dispair you felt prior [...]

It hurts so much !!

kimmii@btinternet.com — Thu, 22 Nov 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Ok I knew the divorce regime would not be easy,but I failed to understand how much it would hurt!!.......................... No one tells you that do they??

Today another flaming letter from my solicitor informing me x is amending the arrangements for our children we had previously agreed ourselves.

Now he is stating he is the perfect father, of course he is in his eyes. He is not a bad father don't get me wrong but could do better. However just starting to do bet [...]

The Silence is Deafening!!

kimmii@btinternet.com — Wed, 14 Nov 2007 06:04:56 +0100

Ok I know if we did not live in silence we would be shouting at each other, but the silence is deafening!!

So much still needs to be said, to be sorted. Neither one of us can even look at each other without hatred in our eyes let alone hold down more than two words ot each other. The emails have even stopped.

Living in the same home is bearable because the house is big enough to accomadate us all with spare living space and bedrooms. so we do not even have to see each other on day [...]

Reform of Divorce Laws may be needed in my opinion!

kimmii@btinternet.com — Tue, 06 Nov 2007 12:20:35 +0100

How can a couple who have been married for 17 years have 2 fabulous children, converse by email only, yet live in the same house??

Today I stooped to his level when I sent him a mail asking if we could draw up the split of marital material assets, sofa's, bed's etc etc. Needless to say I am still awaiting a reply.

Sometimes I just want all the pain to go away crawl into a hole and forget it all. Yesterday morning I woke up mid dream and had to realise that yes it was anoth [...]

Another weekend bites the dust

kimmii@btinternet.com — Sun, 04 Nov 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Well the weekend has come and gone, if ex is in I am out and visa versa. It has got to the stage where the weekends are spent with friends or family just to get out of the marital home if ex 2 b is there. Sometimes I wonder how we ever reached the point we are at!

The week days are so pre occupied with work related issues coming back to the mh is just about getting something to eat and going to sleep ready for the next day so not so much of a problem being here.

Sometimes this div [...]

Being backed into a corner

kimmii@btinternet.com — Tue, 23 Oct 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Well the divorce has been filed, my ex is not defending it but signing it with relief.

Ex recieved my first letter of settlement propesal from my solicitor today. His face has been beetroot wth anger since he opened it. I think he feels I have backed him into a corner with no where to turn.

Anger has made him blinkered to think I am demanding what has been suggested. When he has calmed down and no doubt been to see his solicitor it will allow him to see that the first letter is a [...]

Another Night Another Day

kimmii@btinternet.com — Wed, 19 Sep 2007 00:00:00 +0100

1992 was the year I got married, we had lived together for nearly three years. Did not rush into marriage as we had seen others do, who were now faltering in the ever increasing divorce statistics. Eyes wide open we both walked down the aisle thinking it would be forever. I have to say this loved up feeling lasted right up till 8 years ago.

I have often wondered why the feeling disappeared but if I am honest I cannot pinpoint it down to one thing. It is more of an accumilation of loads [...]