where i am now.

anna@theharrisfamily.wanadoo.co.uk — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Lost.Totally lost after feeling totally abused and having that time to think about things since he left December 06. Frightened,confused, and how could I have lived with a man I didn't really know. Maybe my recovery is to begin to believe he wasn't the person I thought he was. And not to make excuses anymore. Am starting to believe in myself again and recognise the person I was before I met him. But it's shattered dreams and I wonder is he really happy where he is now. Can't [...]

1st April

bertie1670@googlemail.com — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Thanks to those who replied to 'entry 1' and so quickly. I didn't really expect anyone to read this!

Not much to report today. The builder and plumber have nearly finished refitting the bathroom, pretty galling that I won't be here to enjoy it. Have arranged for the estate agent to give me a valuation on thursday. His advice is that selling right now is not a good idea so will consider renting it out. We've only been here 2&n [...]

Tuesday 1st April

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I haven't blogged for a few days, I have had alot going on...

Sunday I came onto wiki & poured my heart out in the chat room. About how I have been covering up the bad things up in my life, By pretending it isn't really happening :( A special thks to Fat Boy Getting Slim & the others who comforted me & gave there words of comfort, suport & advise. I have decided to write about my life on wordpad, It's going to take me ages & i'm hoping it might give m [...]

My story.

anna@theharrisfamily.wanadoo.co.uk — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Met my x to be in 1987.

Got married in 1990

He moved into my home in 1989

Our beautiful son was born in 1996

We were happy but a family crisis distracted me and was supporting my brother when I found out he was having an affair. At the same time I discovered I was pregnant and with the thrill of impending motherhood and my x to be showing remorse and also being thrilled about becoming a father I was able to forgive. I look back now and realise he should have been sup [...]

Mediation Pending!!

europa123@gmail.com — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Damn. Was meant to be keeping a more up-to-date version of this, but seem to have been distracted by a great many things, like responding to other people's posts.

Anyway, today will be another milestone. Tonight we have the first Mediation meeting at the solicitors, for the bargain price of £180/hr. EH? £180/hr!!!!!! And the first thing he wants to do is summarise why we're there? Jesus man, I can read, I know why we're there, I don't need [...]

Puns for the day......

ricky.allan62@hotmail.co.uk — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Hope fully these will bring a smile to your day...

How is an ex like an inflamed appendix?
It caused you a lot of pain, and after it was removed, you found out you didn't need it anyway.

There was a time when one went to a chiropractor to get rid of a pain in the neck or a constantly repetitive migraine. Now they just divorce him/her.

My ex-husband and I had communication problems. He would get mad because I wouldn't tell him who I was dating.

Entry 1

bertie1670@googlemail.com — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

The start of my rantings. I think I will use the blog to let off steam although my best mate and family have been very good in helping.

I am being accused of unreasonable behaviour. She says it is just a means to an end but it hurt. If working too hard to pay the mortgage and school fees is unreasonable then i'm guilty as charged. Should I defend this or just accept and get on with life?

Found a great flat today, which has 3 bedrooms, lowish rent and [...]

Rollercoaster

a_willis4@sky.com — Mon, 31 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Gosh when you read that your emotions will be a rollercoaster then your all not wrong.

One day I am angry hate him for throwing away our life, dreams and plans. He gave up without a fight and i hate and miss him at the same time. can't believe what i put up with over the last few months. Seems so obvious that he was having an affair - hindsight a wonderful thing!

Then the next day

positive, looking forward to meeting new people doing what i want to do, and making my own [...]

MY WHOLE STORY X

nikkihayes21@yahoo.co.uk — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

My story is i was the one that finally got the strenth to leave my so called wonderfull relationship, and to many people it was perfect a man who loves you and works hard with a good job and we had a beautiful house , decorated and furnished very well but the pair of us!! We started of with my ex simply moving into my private rented home that i had with my then 4yr old daughter. I had all the furnishings needed so it was just a case of him pack a few clothes from his mums then move in....It took [...]

Back to reality-batteries recharged

stellahall59@hotmail.co.uk — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I feel like I could take on the world at this moment in time. I will try to hang on to this feeling in my memory, when time passes + the feelings of fear + misery return as they no doubt will at some point.

I had a wonderful relaxing day at Champneys on Friday- anyone (men + women) who ever gets the chance to go, take it. My daughter + I made a pact not to mention b*****d + we stuck to it. We both felt totally relaxed + the day seemed to go on for ever. I had been so frightened that it [...]

The right thing to say

matt@chaos.org.uk — Sun, 30 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

When you're in the middle of turbulence like this, nothing is straightforward. Even a question like "how do you feel" is too much. I don't know how I feel. I have every emotion under the sun running through my mind at the same time. I'm happy, I'm sad, I'm excited, I'm bitter, I'm hurt, I'm strong, I'm vulnerable. I really don't know how the hell I am, and how I feel now ain't going to be how I feel in five mi [...]

Long time coming...

freedobjects@yahoo.co.uk — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

My blogs are becoming further and further apart.I am not sure if this is a good thing or not.

At the begining of my journey I was so wrapped up in the moment.The worries of what will be, the loss of my wife partner and my daughter.

I would say that I have come to some sort of understanding in myself and of my situation. We can all keep on being angry and hateful with others and ourselves for things that have happen. But at sometime we have to move on.

Most of us [...]

Something to look back on

matt@chaos.org.uk — Sat, 29 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

So this is it. In 48 hours I will be out of my home, and unlikely to return. It's down to the nitty-gritty of packing what I need to take with me right away until I find somewhere to live, and putting everything else in boxes so I can come back and collect them later. Nearly all visible traces of me will be gone, except for one room, and that's what's going to hurt me the most. It feels like I'm simply erasing myself from family history like some sort o [...]

feeling more positive.

pinkymalmalred@yahoo.co.uk — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Another weekend is almost upon us. I am feeling more positive this weekend.My s2bx will be taking my son over to his place, and I will be on my own with my daughter,who of course will be going out with her own friends.

I have decided to go to London, to a craft and sewing show, on saturday.On sunday I will take myself to the gym.I have a dvd for saturday night.

I think the way to keep myself from feeling so down and alone is to keep busy ,plan ahead and try to occupy my mind with [...]

Housewife Sees The Postives...

flopsybunny_uk@yahoo.co.uk — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I have realised that my previous blogs are far too introspective and in some cases, downright miserable! After reading Mongmong’s Blog entry “Why Blogging Helps”, I have decided that I need to look at all the good things in my life, and record them in future blogs, and be more upbeat when talking about my emotions – life is not all doom and gloom for me, but I do seem to only record the gloomy emotions!

When tears don't come

matt@chaos.org.uk — Fri, 28 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

The last twelve months have hit me with more bad stuff than I can believe. Lost several close relatives, a couple of friends have committed suicide, and now separation after 20 years.

Unsurprisngly, I've been upset, hurt, and in despair much of the time.

But I still haven't cried. Is that odd?

All set for a great weekend

stellahall59@hotmail.co.uk — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Hey, I've been looking forward to this weekend since my daughter asked several weeks ago-just after her dad + I announced that we were splitting-if I would accept the gift of a luxurious Spa day at Champneys from her. She said I deserved some love + extra pampering. I was really touched by her thoughtfulness, put the thought of how much it would cost her out of my mind (with great difficulty I must add) + accepted her gift. I offered to pay for us both to have a treatment-she told me to w [...]

My bubble has burst

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I rang "him" my husband because a water bill came. I didn't think he'd tlk but he did. Thats when my bubble burst he told me tht he is in a relationship with someone tht we both know, Then he had the audacity to frigging tell me tht he wasn't sure if his new relationship was going to work. Like what the heck, do I really want to know or care & surely he isn't wanting me to wait around to find out or to take him back.

He went crazy at me because the CSA are [...]

Where I am now

ian.johnson@uk.insight.com — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

It's been quite a while since I have updated my blog and don't some things happen fast !! My life has totally changed and I am starting to enjoy myself once again and a smile has returned to my face once more.

''Emotions'' Boy what are they all about and how many different one's are there? Seem to of had them all and sometimes all in the same day. What is that about?

Different people deal with things differently and I don't want any [...]

Why blogging helps

matt@chaos.org.uk — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I know a lot of us are new to the whole idea of blogging. It can be quite scary putting your innermost thoughts and feelings where everyone can see them. So I thought, as encouragement to those who haven't tried it, I'd tell you why I blog. (Although I only have a few blog posts on this site, I've been a blogger for years.)

1. The "Pollyanna" blog

I've suffered with manic depression for about 25 years now (bipolar disorder, they call it now). [...]

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