Blog Entries - April 2008

TFI (nearly) Friday

bertie1670@googlemail.com — Thu, 01 May 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Pleased that the week is nearly over. It's been busy and work and quite unproductive at home. We have no communication at all now, not even to discuss issues about the children. Roll on next week when we have next mediation meeting. I really hope that we can make some progress, especially on housing arrangements. The uncertainty is a killer.

Heard from sols again, I think i understand what they are saying but why is someone charging £170/hour so b [...]

Had enough

avebabe@sky.com — Thu, 01 May 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Well moveing 2 morrow im going bk 2 the council house my stbx thru me out of 9months ago the council put it bk in my soul name in march 17th my stbx has been tresspassing ever since .He should have given keys bk 2 day at 12noon he hasnt .So im meeting council man at house at 3.45 they r breaking in as he has left place is empy and r going 2 change locks so i can move in .Had so many reports hes trashed place well c .

Ive asked 4 some help from parent line plus 2 help sort out my kids be [...]

Feeling low

butterfly_colours@hotmail.com — Thu, 01 May 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I thought i had been doing so well, and as they say time is the greatest healer, but today something just snapped and i feel so angry and low. There was this stupid driver on the road, and cut a long story short we had words, when i got home i just felt so down. All the feelings and bottled up for such a long time surfaced, i thought of my ex, what a sh*thead he was, how he was merrily getting on with his life with his new woman, and seeing the kids whenever he wanted to, having the best of [...]

Another day another dollar..

poshie72@msn.com — Thu, 01 May 2008 00:00:00 +0100

The day started much like any other.. except for one thing... I slept right through!! Think I was so exhausted. Was so surprised to hear my alarm go off..

Kids up, dressed, fed and packed off to respective childcare. Felt so good with a proper nights sleep that I was singing at the top of my voice in the car all the way to work.

Work.. well was a normal day, but i now have 4 days off... figured I could do with the break. Home again at 6 [...]

another day on the treadmill

pinkymalmalred@yahoo.co.uk — Thu, 01 May 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Another day and more depression.Woke up early after going to bed late as was unable to sleep.Woke up same way as I went to sleep ,crying.Pathetic aren't I?

This week and last has been a real drain on me, keep sleeping during the day and feeling unable to face things.Last weekend I got some escape from things as I went to stay with a friend and was kid free but comming back home here and having to face more stress is doing me in.I have forms from the council to fill in and my financi [...]

Text to him..........

Daisyflower40@hotmail.co.uk — Thu, 01 May 2008 00:00:00 +0100

well ive just sent him a txt, re the weekend, basically he wanted to see me tuesday just gone and i said no...couldnt handle seing him before i had to start back at work, sooooo i said either friday or sat would be good for me..he said he would let me know...but having spoken to his mum (whom i get on really well with) she said he was waiting to hear back from me, which isnt strictly true as he said he would let me know...

now ive just sent him a txt to say can do fri [...]

Same Sh*t, Different Day

michael.bentley@tesco.net — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Today, in between cooking dinner, washing clothes and cleaning the kitchen, I managed to spend a little time watching a film with my kids. The film was quite good. In a different time and a different place, I would have found it amusing and uplifting. Sadly I found myself identifying with the character in the film and it just reinforced my feelings of hopelessness.

The film was "50 first dates" with Adam Sandler and Drew Barrymore. For those not familia [...]

Tired but satisfied

poshie72@msn.com — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Ok so another sleepless night. Think I know more about what's on tv in the early hours than what is shown in the daytime!

Up at 6am for shower, get kids dressed, breakfast and out to their respective childcare - the 2 eldest it's the breakfast club at school, the youngest is at a childminders. Felt really low, and think my 3 year old picked up on it as he cried when I left him which is not something which he normally does. Made me feel awful all the way to [...]

Im still around

skyelord_4153@yahoo.com — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

As some of you resident readers may have noticed I've not been in much of late so just letting you know that I'm still around.

Why the hell do I let myself get into these emotions, I should after all these years be able to control it but with each lie that comes out and I have to prove it false, its getting me down, each time I prove its false another lie comes out even more outrageous; are judges really so stupidly blind that they will just about believe anything put it [...]

So sad

liz_gorgeous41@hotmail.co.uk — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Had a really rubbish day. Didnt go to work that made it worse too much time to think. Cant seem to lift my spirits which is unlike me. Thought blog might help. Read loads of blogs usually makes me feel better kindred spirit and all that. Maybe this is where I hit rock bottom and then go forward. Had thought Id hit rock bottom before and was over it but who knows.

Anyway goin stop now before I depress everyone.

my first ever blog...

Daisyflower40@hotmail.co.uk — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

well ive never written a blog before but i need and want to write some things down so why not here on my own page...

it was my first day back at work today after having had 2 weeks off with stress...only doing half days for the rest of this week and then to be reviewed...it was really hard, i had the worst nights sleep last night, i didnt have anything to drink (first time in about 3 weeks) as i wanted to be good for work but i was awake half the night worrying about work.. [...]

Here we go again

mneme2006@yahoo.co.uk — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Having spoken to my solicitor on Friday, I said I'd get my marriage history off to her over the weekend. Here it is, Wednesday, and I still haven't. She didn't think the twenty-odd pages were needed, though accepts that it's what I need to do so that I can make it coherent, for myself. I don't think she would have appreciated the ninety pages it was when I started two months ago, nearly three now.

I've been a bit worried about the behavio [...]

A few days off

garethfun@yahoo.co.uk — Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Hi all,

Not been writting on my blog for a couple of days but thought I would try and bring a smile to a few faces, he goes.

Should women have children after 35?

No, 35 children are more than enough

It's been a good week, so far not much to write.

I've been told that you can get money for writting blogs, thinking of taking it up, what do your guys think?

What would I write and do you think I could earn money from it?

Anyway, you [...]

the last 10 days

Wed, 30 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

The last 10 days for me have been like a balloon slowly deflating

After all the hyp and build up its finished apart from the paper work or whatever.

Why does it feel so odd, I am looking for problems hiccups when in reality suppose there cant be any

The dust is not settled by a long chalk but calmness precedes my anxiety each day

I know lots us are in the situation and are to or going through and i wish i could give you all the answers i find myself searching for [...]

Aero 8

bertie1670@googlemail.com — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Time for some good things. Today was great, positive meetings this morning and playing this afternoon.

Despite the really awful weather I have been driving a Morgan Aero 8. For the non car ones reading this is a serious sports car with a 4.4l BMW V8 engine in an aluminium 2 seater. It goes like stink sounds, fab and costs around £80k. I have never driven anything this fast or exciting. How sad that I am going to be stoney broke for a very long time so [...]

Waving not Drowning

neil.cranidge@sky.com — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

First to the GP to try and establish why the anti-depressants have been making me feel more more caffinated than a branch of Costa Coffee. Seems I am one of the unlucky few who react this way, and I have some new sweeties to try along with another sick note for work.

Then I trawl some letting agents, which is like going to estate agents but with really cheap carpets. Not sure why I bothered as everything's on the net these days bu [...]

Feelings

liz_gorgeous41@hotmail.co.uk — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Want to say lots but dont know were to start so sorry if i ramble on ........... Today started like any other kids up breakie school bus etc. Got back home and felt strangely alone I wasnt workin today so thought id use the time to catch up on jobs ironing and all the stuff we mums (and dads sorry) have to do. Had lunch with a friend bit of shopping collected kids and took son to counselling. Suppose I realised that this is it for the next **** many years. Dont get me wrong i love my kids [...]

Got the miseries again!!

stellahall59@hotmail.co.uk — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Now I'm home-sitting here having a cry.

We were civil to each other-he was keen to tell me all about how he was doing etc, but I said I wasn't interested. We had arranged to meet to sort out how we can progress to the future. Making agreements that are acceptable to both of us without clocking up horrendous sol fees. That, we both agree on.

I'd put some 'slap' on, + dressed smartly-I wasn't going to meet him looking a mess. I am upset now, because he looked [...]

a reflective day i think....

ricky.allan62@hotmail.co.uk — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I have read with interest the bloggs today, and i think there is a very reflective content to them all, they cover such a range of emotions and blame, blame on ourselves, us , the people that have been used, hurt, controlled, abused, and lied to, yet we still all have a sense of questionable guilt as if we could have done more to make things better. WE are the ones that have tried to make things better, for our kids, and sometimes at our own cost our partners, and probaly lastly [...]

Concentration

poshie72@msn.com — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Ok will start my story and write a bit on how I am feeling today.

I was married for 13 years, had known him for 18years, and decided in February 2007 that enough was enough. He is a selfish, arrogant person, who put himself before others, thinks he knows everything etc.etc. We have 3 beautiful boys who are my world. I suffered postnatal depression after the birth of my second son, which turned into long term depression due to his attitude towards everything and a [...]