Blog Entries for MMM

Wanted to tell you all.......

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Sat, 12 Jul 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Sorry 2nd blog of the day....

After months of keeping stbx's secret from my Sons we've just found out my eldest who has just completed first year at Uni has passed every single exam!! No retakes for him!! I am so proud, have told family and friends and wanted to share with you all and thank you all for all your support and encouragement during my 5 months of hell......if I had to make the decision again I wouldn't change a thing!!! So blog 2 for me today....time fo [...]

I can...........

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Sat, 12 Jul 2008 01:00:00 +0100

It's been three weeks since he left...and my oh my what a three weeks its been! The washing machine died, my car failed its MOT, clutch went on Son's car... my old life..stbx would have fixed and sorted all but..my new life.. washing machine sorted..car has MOT ...Son has new clutch...all sorted by me! Yes little old me now HAS to do this alone and do you know what?...I can! Last weekend Son got a parking ticket! Popped into get a sandwich and got a £70 fine! Being the sensible [...]

2 weeks ago today.....

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Sun, 29 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well hi

2 weeks ago today was our "telling " day..and what a 2 weeks it has been! Anger, disbelief, tears and sadness but now so sureal! How has our family unit changed so ... BBQ's for four are now for three, three settings at the family table, three lots of washing..the changed list goes on? But I've sat here today with my two gorgeous Sons, had a BBQ ( they cooked) and thought is this really so bad? We've had a nice weekend, ok stbx is living somewhere new [...]

Celebration Day.......

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Fri, 20 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Today would have been my 21st Wedding Anniversary, no gloom here as I've renamed it my celebration day...celebration of my two beautiful Sons who have shown me this week since finding out on Sunday that their Dad has a new family to go too, that I have a lot to celebrate. Ok stbx is a nasty , cheating liar but my Sons are a credit to me, two young men who since Sunday have protectecd me loved me and looked out for me. So together we are strong , positive and moving forwar [...]

At last ...........I can see light

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

He's out of my bed as of yesterday and out of the house this coming Wednesday! After 5 months of keeping his nasty secret to protect my Boys and let them complete their revision and first year exams at University and AS Levels we have told them and as you all said they are real treasures! Youngest knew we had problems , eldest has lived away from home for nearly a year so hadn't really known but boy did they react when they heard about "her"! No respect what so ever left for [...]

Count down....

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well hi

Not long now to my Son returns from Uni, can't wait to see him but so worried about the outcome of the "big tell"? Funny that I've waited so long now for this moment and now feel scared that this time next week who knows what will be going on? Have found some info in stbx's briefacse today about houses for rent and viewings for this week so really really hopeful that there is still a little bit of humanity left in him and he will just leav [...]

One down.....

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Sat, 07 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well one Son has comleted exams so one to go then we can tell them both , stbx will leave and then onto next stage....or so I thought! After me letting "him" stay here for 5 months whilst our Sons revised (youngests first yr in sixth form and the eldest first year at Uni) he now announces he's going no where to we sell the house? Please can anyone tell me when I missed the news flash that God had died and stbx got the job!!!! I am at my wits end with him, has he not heard the n [...]

Why ???

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Mon, 02 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

It's me again. Felt really sad and low today then got home to "I'm away tomorrow night" " with her" I answer "no it's a work thing" if it is work I don't believe him and if he's with her I don't care ? So why do I feel like screaming? Why do I feel so sick? I know about her so why does he have to rub my nose in it? Another two weeks for me to wait before my four month nightmare part 1 is over , why can't he just not go away tomorrow [...]

Still counting.....

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

The weekend nearly done...I hate them. I really would like to wake up now please from this nightmare! Picture the scene..I've just taken my youngest Son out driving (test end of June) done a bit of shopping, home prepared roast dinner, which is now cooking, hung washing out , bit of housework and stbx is outside vaccuming and cleaning my car smiling and chatting with neighbours???...weird world of the soon to be divorcing couple! The only thing keeping me going is the fact that my Son is [...]

Bite your tongue and count to ten!

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Sat, 31 May 2008 01:00:00 +0100

.....9,10! My stbx is sat in the lounge with our 17 yr old Son (who hasn't got a clue that his Dad has a "new family"and will be telling him after his exams and then leaving him and his brother and me for a "new life") playing Pro Evo on the Playstation!....I can't bear to watch this monster anymore so have come upstairs to rant at my wiki friends...sorry all! I know that I insisted that we told them after their exams but this is so hard, the only thing keeping m [...]

For you all

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Wed, 28 May 2008 01:00:00 +0100

After listening to all my blogs I wanted to share this with you-my fav song at the mo is Leona Lewis track 4 Better in time-here's some of the lyrics

Thought I couldn't live without you

It's gonna hurt when it heals too

It'll all get better in time

And even though I really love you

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve too

My favourite line is number 5

Most unfavourable line 4!!

Take care all much love M [...]

Feeling low...

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Tue, 27 May 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Blogging again.... Here I am again, was really looking forward to today with my Grandad but things went a bit pear shaped!! Met up with him at my Aunts, had cake and coffee then drove him home to my home town( where I met s2bx0 26 yrs ) Have been "home" a few times since finding out 4 months ago about "her" and all been well as leave motorway, then back country roads and bingo..Grandad's house. Not today..Major water leak that diverted us right through the town..massive [...]

Chips & Wine

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Mon, 26 May 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Blimey another blog!!! I was dreading today but it's done! Took my Son back to Uni, 2 hour drive, settled him in and drove to the nearest services and just sat in the car thinking...how did I do that? He has gone back without witnessing angry arguments although the atmosphere has beem slighty tense, he just thinks Dad is stressy ( busy Job) Got in and stbx said I didnt reliese he was going back today??? Sure he didn't he has hardly spoke for a week , why would he he's got his new [...]

Another Day

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Sun, 25 May 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Morning

Didn't sleep well at all. My head is spinning, it's getting nearer the "telling our Sons day "and although the relief of the secret being out is what I've been striving for I'm actually terrified, angry and really fed up today! Doesn't help that s2bx was horrible to me yesterday saying things like " but you will have a mortgage free home" and "why are you so miserable"....does he really care at all that our Sons are going to have [...]

New User

mandy.bell7@btinternet.com — Sat, 24 May 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I'm new to this blog ... I have been so fed up and came across this site today. Where do I begin? Found out back in Feb that my lovely Husband of 21 yrs has been having an affair. I have two gorgeous Boys. One in his first year at Uni the other is in yr 12 doing AS Levels..great timing!! The boys have no idea we are getting Divorced, I have been living a nightmare double life as under no circumstances did I want their Exams ruined for this yr. I am under no illusion that things a [...]