Blog Entries for Jerseylass

Finally It's All Over

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Tue, 03 Jun 2008 01:00:00 +0100

The last few months have flown by since i last wrote on my blog. I'm still with my wonderful fella from Chelmsford and the relationship is going from strength to strength. Hopefully moving down to be with him permantly in October, once my daughter has settled in with her long-term boyfriend. My house sold last Friday 30th May and should get the pennies from the sale today. Not much consideing what i put into the property but at least i wont owe on the mortgage. What rogues [...]

Sorted

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Thu, 01 Nov 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Well it's been a while since i was lst on here. Hubby and i have decided to separate, only problem is neither of us have anywhere to go, so we are all living together, his 4 girls and my 1, until the house has been sold. It's on the market at the moment and we've had some interest, but no offers as yet. Market is slowing down. I so badly want to move on in my life, but can't. I could move out and rent a flat with my daughter, but she thinks its a waste of money and we should stay [...]

At Last - Final Decision

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Sun, 26 Aug 2007 15:09:18 +0100

On Tuesday i made him make a final decision. I suppose some part of me wanted him to say would could work things out, but that didn't happen. We decided to separate. Told our 5 girls last night. What a nightmare. I will move out and buy a house with my daughter and he will find somewhere for himself and his 4. Maybe we will be able to see each other after we have separated (like it was at the begining) only time will tell. Perhaps we both need space and time to find each other again. Who [...]

Last Chance?

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Sun, 12 Aug 2007 09:52:33 +0100

July was a shit month. He was away for most of it, which gave me breathing space. Funny thing is i didn't miss him when he was away. Does that say something? Have spoken to him on 3 or 4 occassions and sent e-mails, but nothing changes, so decided to try again yesterday. I told him i sometimes felt like leaving and going it alone and he said he understood, but he still didn't know what he wanted. We spoke at length about everything and he admitted that he actually resented my rel [...]

26th June

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Tue, 26 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Haven't blogged for a while as didn't feel i had much to write to be honest. Nothing has changed in my life, same old routines. My hubby was away with his Scouts for the weekend (again) and came home on Sunday night around 9.45pm. Within in half an hour he'd ask if i would mind if he popped to the pub for a drink. I said no, whatever. I didn't even get an invite, nice eh! Went to my bed instead with a good book. Good books are becoming a big part of my life at the moment lol. [...]

15th June

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Decided it was about time i had a night out. When i got back from work i went up to my room and watched some telly. Hubby came home in a rush wondering why i was watching telly in the bedroom and what was wrong with the one downstairs !!! Good start to the evening. I asked if he mind that i go out (not that i need permission, but its always nice to ask) and got 20 questions. Who with, when, why where etc. He rushed about getting ready to go to scouts, kissed me goodbye and said 'see you some [...]

13th (lucky for some)

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Wed, 13 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

yesterday was my step daughter's 20th birthday. You would think her dad would have been at home for that, but no, Scouts came first again. No sooner was i in the door at 7.30, then he was out again saying he had stuff to do for scouts and bits and pieces to deliver to scouts groups from the weekend. That could have waited. I rang a few times from 10pm onwards and eventually got a call back about 11. Funny how he managed to talk to someone else 5 times (he told me) but couldnt ring me back. S [...]

Another Week

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Well it's now Tues. Didn't see my hubby until late on Sun nite and last nite he was working late and i saw him briefly for about 5 mins before i went to my bed. Is it worth it i ask myself. Its like were living sepate lives. Mentioned i wanted to go to Royal Highland show in edinburgh next weekend and he said he would like to go to, but has Scout competiton again that weekend, so if we want to go together will have to take a day off work and go on the Thurs instead. Think the only reason [...]

11th June

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Sun, 10 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Uneventfull day really. Had a wee lie in and then headed for town. Popped my cv into Barclays Bank in the hope that i might get an interview. Then home. Watched a dvd, waved my daughter goodbye off to work as she works 4-12, then went up to stables and rode my horse. Weather is warm but alas no sun !!! Waiting for hubby to come home as he's been in Edinburgh for the weekend, but as he's not phoned i've no idea what time he'll be back. He's prob in the pub as usual. Never min [...]

8th June

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Fri, 08 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Well its Friday (thank god) the weekend ahead of us. Have office all to myself next week as colleague away. Yippee. Hubby away in Edinburgh on Scout thing, so have weekend to myself. What to do ??? Think will sit it tonight will Pizza and new Pirates & Shrek 3 film although have chance to go out and would like to, its a dilema !! No, think i'll stay in, dvd's win. Friend (don't have many, sad eh) taking me out to dinner tomorrow night which will make a change, but probably wont i [...]

6th June

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Wed, 06 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Spoke to hubby about 7pm as his car was not outside the pub as it usually is. He was still at work but said he wouldn't be long. Had to phone him to pass on a msg about 9.45 so he obviously went to the pub instead of coming home and finishing off the garage which was what he said he was going to do. Phoned him about 9.45 to pass a msg on (someone had called for him) and he said he would be home in about 10 mins or so as he was pissed off. This he duly did but was in a funny mood, the one you [...]

5th June

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Tue, 05 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

Hubby is in a mood, something about too much gossip in his local pub and he doesn't like it. I had tellling off when i tried to to ask about some of our personal business as well. Ooops. Funny thing is when i got home i told my daughetr to watch herself as he was in a funny mood (he'd shouted at her the day before) and when he came in he was as nice as pie. Gave her a big kiss and a cuddle and said he'd help her fix the dishwasher which wasn't working properly. Wonders will never [...]

Should i stay or should i go ?

dragonheart196@hotmail.com — Mon, 04 Jun 2007 00:00:00 +0100

How did we get to this? When did it start to go so horribly wrong? Wish i had a magic wand that i could wave and make things better, but this is the real world, not a fairy tale. You tell me you care for me deeply, but don't know if you love me anymore. That your unhappy with everything and that for the last few years you feel like i have come in and taken over everything and that you feel like a non-entity. Where did all the money go? We are morgaged to the hilt and can still barely afford [...]