Blog Entries for Sanctuary

12th September

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Fri, 12 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Dear blog..

Today i'm sharing a secret with you.. I have a dinner date tomorrow ~massive smiles~ & i'm really nervous, I haven't been out in so many yrs yet alone with another man, other than my stbx. I feel like a teenager going on a first date & i'm sharing my apprehensions with my children & its really strange as i'm sure it's suposed to be the other way around. Ooh I do hope everything goes ok & my nerves don't get the better of me.. In a [...]

14th August 08

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Thu, 14 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Yesterday afternoon I rang my prospective employer, with a few concerns that had been bought to my attention after tlking to a friend about my new up coming job. The job description was "cleaner" when I attended the interview on monday I was told what was expected frm me. I spent approx 1h 25 mins there going over things. I was to clean the main day area, dinning area, main toilet used by majority of residents, hallways & bedrooms which are unsuite. I was also told tht myb once [...]

My day today

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Mon, 11 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Well I went for my interview today & I got the job cleaning in a residential home. I'm a bit apprehensive about coming of benifits & going on a monthly salary, but i'm sure my son & I will manage. I start my job next monday the exact day tht I started recieving benifits when he left me with nothing. I'm going to see my lone parent adviser on thursday. I'm really shocked at the help & suport tht they offer & it will be great knowing tht she will still be the [...]

Really excited...

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Sorry for posting twice in one day. But i'm really excited.. My ex sister in law rang me & asked me if I was still looking for work, To which I swiftly replied YES! She said tht she had recomended me for a cleaning job in the residential home she works at. A few minutes after her fone call the owner of the residential home rang me & offered me the job placement. I'm going for an informal meeting on monday at 11.30

I can't begin to tell you all, just how excited [...]

I want to help myself move forward

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Fri, 08 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Dear Blog..

I haven't written in some months.. But this morning I woke up feeling right depressed angry at myself. And why you may ask.. because I can't face life. I live my life hiding behind a fake smile & pretend everything is going to be ok, I wake every morning wondering why I can't move my life forwards. Why do I feel asthough the world around me moving forwards & i'm just stuck here in this horrible prison I have made for myself.

One of my elder sons [...]

Mixed Emotions

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Tue, 29 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Yesterday I recieved a text frm my stbx, Saying exactly in his words "just to let you know CAB have advised me to cancel all direct debits to the house and not to tlk to you only through sols, so I will let your sol know who mine is when get one. don't bother ringing me, if (sons name) wants me, Tell him to call me"

The direct debits i'm slowly sorting. I now will have my own tv licence sorted with MY name on it, AOL are being sorted, the nice lady at AOL is going to c [...]

22nd April

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Tue, 22 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I've not blogged in a long time, So here goes..

I attended my first sols appointment on the 9th april, Tht went ok & she reassured me tht if he didn't contest adultery it would be a fairly straight forward divorce. We have no assests, house or child maintance to sort out. So fingers crossed it will be straight forward. My daughter (17) moved out of the family home & went to live with friends on the very same day. I was sad to see her go, But relieved as I didn't nolo [...]

Anger release!

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Sat, 05 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I have been having real issues with my daughter (17) & today she told me tht she has been keeping to herself who her father is with. God knows how she has managed to do this without it ripping her apart inside :( She then proceeded to tell me tht, She has bought him a lap top & tht he is driving her 4 x 4 & she is considering buying him a new car ( How frigging nice is tht ) My daughter was really upset as she called her dad & asked when he'd be down to which he replied &q [...]

Tuesday 1st April

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Tue, 01 Apr 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I haven't blogged for a few days, I have had alot going on...

Sunday I came onto wiki & poured my heart out in the chat room. About how I have been covering up the bad things up in my life, By pretending it isn't really happening :( A special thks to Fat Boy Getting Slim & the others who comforted me & gave there words of comfort, suport & advise. I have decided to write about my life on wordpad, It's going to take me ages & i'm hoping it might give m [...]

My bubble has burst

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

I rang "him" my husband because a water bill came. I didn't think he'd tlk but he did. Thats when my bubble burst he told me tht he is in a relationship with someone tht we both know, Then he had the audacity to frigging tell me tht he wasn't sure if his new relationship was going to work. Like what the heck, do I really want to know or care & surely he isn't wanting me to wait around to find out or to take him back.

He went crazy at me because the CSA are [...]

Good day

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Tue, 25 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Well, I woke up this morning & I wasn't feeling happy at all. I awoke looking like I had been permed over night then my first daily thought was "why" I have been consumed in wanting answers frm my husband tht I now know I might never get, It has been driving me crazy.

I came on here early this morning feeling sorry for myself, Untill I vented my frustrations to another member of wiki in the chat room, Poor Falk :( But he made me see the light & has helped me take&n [...]

My first blog

LindaHubble@hotmail.com — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 00:00:00 +0100

Well this is my first ever blog I haven't a clue what i'm doing, So here goes... I've been married for 18 yrs I have 4 children 3 boys 15 22 & 25 & 1 daughter she is 17

I accidently stumbled across wiki by accident & i'm sure glad tht I did as I was feeling pretty low.

Last august my husband came home & announced tht he didn't love me anymore & tht he was leaving me as I never showed him no signs of love & affection. He is a lorry driver [...]