Blog Entries for lifesolong

last blog

g.marks80@ntlworld.com — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 01:00:00 +0100

This is my last blog, i dont want to do this anymore. I know this probably works for lots of people, but not for me, silly really, but i dont know why im even writing this, but im going to take my sad existence and keep it to myself.Dont worry im not going to do anythink stupid,i have to be strong for my kids!!! Hopefully i will get my date for my counsel [...]

10 days on

g.marks80@ntlworld.com — Tue, 26 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

10 days on from probably the lowest i have ever felt, i didnt think i could ever get that low,and i hope i never feel that low again,but thanks to certain new friends ,mainly megan, and harrietbaby , and a guy called mike, who is a healthcare assistant on the cardiac care unit who i met while having my 2nd stint in hospital with heart probs,life is not so black anymore,also have to say hi and thanks for all the great support ive had from the peeps at wik [...]

why i cant die!

g.marks80@ntlworld.com — Sat, 16 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Or should i say why cant i die?

sorry if i sound so low, but im having an awful time at the moment. The reason i cant die is because of my kids,they have got a crappy mother, who doesnt give a sh.t about them,so therefore i have to be strong for them. trouble is i dont want to be strong any more,i have had enough, even after having had a heart attack, my so called family and friends still dont care enough to ring, just to see if im alri [...]

WHY

g.marks80@ntlworld.com — Sun, 10 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

If only we knew what was round the corner of our lives,you could plan things, not make stupid mistakes, do things better, less exciting i know, but, in hindsight,ifs and buts and all that rubbish,i certainly would of written different things in my last blog,let me explain, this time last week ,i was feeling ok just back off hols, j [...]

how "2"

g.marks80@ntlworld.com — Sun, 03 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

hi 2 all

thanks for all the responses, its great to hear all your thoughts.

I know this sounds kind of screwy,but this place ive found here, its kinda comforting,i let you know how im feeling,and tel [...]

Am i so bad?

g.marks80@ntlworld.com — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

hi 2 all

Idont know how many people there are in england,

and there must be many different types of people,so how come i allways meet the same type? I only seem to meet people who i have to phone, or i have to go see, otherwise i dont see or hear from them, well not much anyway.It m [...]

time screams so loud

g.marks80@ntlworld.com — Fri, 01 Aug 2008 01:00:00 +0100

hi 2 all

Another day still filled with hope, lasts only till i wake up. another note from my ex lying in wait for me. "i cant move on" 4 little words that have haunted me for 4 years, and wont go away. These 4 words rattle inside my head [...]

whats in a day

g.marks80@ntlworld.com — Thu, 31 Jul 2008 01:00:00 +0100

hi 2 all

"whats in a day"

a day lasts for 24 hours,or 1440 minutes,or worse still 86400 seconds,and each second seems to last an eternity when there is nobody to talk to.