Blog Entries for red35

I want to get off this rollercoster

debbie.nuttall@redmayne.co.uk — Wed, 23 Jul 2008 01:00:00 +0100

Eldest came at the weekend and said wanted to have a week with me and a week with his dad so I was over the moon thought it was a great idea and would work really well. Youngest still wants to be full time with his dad. This week I asked if he had spoken to his dad and he said he wouldn't be pressurised in to it and if I did he would take longer to decide ?! What do you say to that I am in a constant state of anxiousness.

I am so sure my stbx is feeding [...]

Black clouds

debbie.nuttall@redmayne.co.uk — Wed, 16 Jul 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I am taking each day as it comes and today thinking at least I will see the boys tomorrow!! Been texting them but get upset if they don't reply as I know especially the eldest is constantly texting his mates also don't know what to say....

Feel quite down today and the black cloud down - didn't sleep kept waking and look terrible but come in to work to keep mind off it hopefully.

Inever would have left my ex even after all the problems as a [...]

How have we come to this

debbie.nuttall@redmayne.co.uk — Tue, 15 Jul 2008 01:00:00 +0100

I am not sure how I am going to get through this but feel writing it down might help! To all you readinbg this sorry for going on...

I have been with my husband for 25 years in all and married 18 years. For the last 8 years he was on the internet 'chatting' to other women and left me and the kids 4 years ago for another woman but after 5 weeks came back and said he loved me. Foolishly I took him back but he refused to go to Relate and we carried on from th [...]