I left work reasonably early today, to hit the supermarket before tomorrows rush. I was in the car, stationary at a set of traffic lights, when quite unexpectedly my STBX strode around a corner out of nowhere. Fortunately for me, I do not think he saw me, or if he did, he hid it well. He was in a part of town that I never would have imagined seeing him, suited and booted, but looking a shadow of his former self. Now I appreciate if this had been even 4 months ago or even 4 weeks ago, I would have been a quivering wreck, unable to continue my journey, but in light of recent events something

When you have children that you're co-parenting you have to not only talk with your stbx often but you have to have a certain level of teamwork and trust. That's tough but I do my best. So we talk a lot. Pretty much every day about one thing or another. We had a long talk yesterday about the last year and where things had broken down. I don't ask why anymore (why the affair, why during radiation, why anything) - she honestly doesn't know. For the first time ever she took some accountability for her actions. Usually when I say to her you decided to have an affair. You did this when I was

I want to be able to feel happy again, to not constantly have thoughts which spoil any good feelings I might have. I want to stop just existing. I want to stop dreaming about him all the time. I want to stop thinking about him all the time. I want to stop caring about him, worrying if he is alright, worrying if he is happy, I hope he is, I don’t want the man I love to be unhappy. I want to stop being scared all the time. I want my children to be happy/comfortable with the situation. I want to stop burdening my children, I want them to have a life without worrying about