Gosh can't believe I have a date! Not had a date for over 20 years.

Very nervous even though I have known the guy as a friend for over 2 years.

Can't wait for the first kiss, feel like a teenager, what if i mess up. But hey all i reraly want is to have some fun. No harm in that.

Going out to buy some sexy underwear! you never know what might develop.

Five weeks ago i thought my world had collapsed but now i feel i am starting out on a awonderful new journey and have no idea where i will end up.

So there is life after being dumped and i hope everyone discovers that sooner rather than later.

wish me

Well, as to be expected eventually, I had a stonking migraine yesterday-spent most of the day talking to the toilet bowl!! Managed to stagger outside to put the bin out-apologies to any neighbours that I may have frightened. I must have looked like something out of Shaun of the Dead!!

Many thanks to the replies to my post re buying my stbx out. I feel a little more hopeful now. At least I have a guaranteed mortgage-I think stbx will struggle as he has handed his notice in at work + has £10,000 loan plus £3,000 credit card bill, neither of which I have. At least working for the NHS my job is

I didn't sleep last night.  Normally when I'm away for a weekend, it's because I'm doing something special.  Today, it's because I can't go home.  I don't actually have a home any more now.  That really hit me. I'm at a friend's house, so I'm not completely on my own, but I'm lonely as hell.  I don't have any enthusiasm to do anything today.  I don't even want to talk to anyone.  Right now it's the middle of the afternoon and I'm just hiding under a duvet waiting for the afternoon to be over.

This evening I'm cooking a huge Indian meal, which will be good though, and there are a few people