Hi Mr Blog. Its been 3 years today since the start of all this. What a 3 years its been. There have been amazing highs and of course the lows.  But mostly highs. I have met some amazing people, done some amazing things and of course life mostly great now. But this is normal life now. Freinds, going out and having fun. Living, loving and laughing.

 Funny thing is that I dont remember much before 3 years ago today. Strange that. I can remember how it all started and what happned. But before that nothing. Strange. But to say that its 3 years is a bit wrong realy. It goes back further than that.

Thanks first of all to all who have commented and offered their support.

Well, no reply's to any e mails I have sent to my wife. I will keep on giving her that title until we are separated, daft though it is. I have not asked her any questions,apart from "can you put my 2 suits in the dry cleaners please" and "if you do not want any communiation from me  please say so and I will do as you request". Or  any demands or anything really at all apart from copying her in on the e mails and jokes I send to my kids. I gave her a website to look at regarding our relationship/personal problems and so

 It has been busy days..but that's I want to be, because it is easy to get some sleep. Tiredness knock me down to get sleep easily.

Still I can't believe last year this time I was with my husband and tried to have a hope..."we are ok" then I used to deny what I knew /felt about"strange his attitude".. But now...even it has been difficult time but now I have known all how he has been not respectable...and no degnity... This is the internet...it gave me all information about him...on THE site...

I used to cry every single day, every seconds and I was wondering.."how much the body can make "tears"