im a bit gobsmacked tonight, had the girls round, we all had a good drink, but im a bit gobsmacked as to there opinons on my retalionship, they seems to think i was controled in some way, they didnt like the way IT spoke to me, how i changed ? they didnt like the way i gave up my house and money for IT, so why didnt they tell me at the time ? then my mum, saw ITs mum, and she wanted so bad to tell her the truth (and probably throw a punch, good on you mum ) so tonight ive had a good drink (yes im pissed) and confused, if my friends thought things were that bad, when i loved IT to pieces, why

Haven''''t blogged for a while. Was signed off work last week and started the ADs, but still not sleeping very well and so have felt exhausted and no interest in doing anything. Back to GP yesterday and have another week off and a few sleeping tabs - am trying the herbal stuff first so they are a last resort. GP was wonderful - was so glad I went and would encourage anyone struggling and thinking ''''I want to do this on my own'''' to go see their GP. Am dreading this weekend, kids off to stay with dad for the first time. Of course I want them to have a nice time but am dreading them

Here goes . My daughter has been off school all week with tonsillitis .It is His weekend and I had planned to go to my sisters as it is her daughters birthday and she is having a party.My dsughter got wind of this and wants to come .Shr texted Him to say she was ill and He teted to say if she wanted to stay with Mummy this weekend she could if she still felt ill .( don''t think He is doing this out of the kindness of his heart , he hates people being ill and would keep well away from any of us ,not allowing the kids in our bed and keeping his distance ) Anyway she leapt around the house