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Apr 01
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I feel like writing a blog today. I received my Decree Absolute (YAY!!!), but I'm still waiting for the Consent Order to be approved (it will be, won't it???) - however, I still think this warrants a bottle of Champagne - of which I'm on my third glass (fourth not far away), which probably explains my inclination to talk about myself ;)
Basically, Spring is in the air (apart from the hailstones at lunchtime and forthcoming showers) and I am nearly out of this hellish hole of depression and anxiety. It may be a little premature to be celebrating (and DIVORCEE is not a word I'm in love with), but I have to say I'm proud of the person this process has made me. I'm not bitter (as long as the Judge doesn't tell me I have to give him more money), I've learnt a LOT about myself and I know now that I can cope with ANYTHING! Well, except for my Mum dying - but that's hopefully a long way off, she's healthier than me & not that much older.
Talking of my Mum, she's been such a huge rock in all this. We've always been very close - us against the world a lot of the time - but I always know I can talk to her for hours on end about how I'm feeling without the slightest concern that I'm boring her. And vice versa. She'll be going through this soon (separated from her husband (stepfather) the same week my divorce began) and I'll have her back all the way. It's the very least I can do.
I also credit my Mum for making me the person I am today - but not completely. She always encouraged me to do what makes me happy, never criticized my boyfriends (until after I dumped them), always let me make my own mistakes. As a result, I try not to think of regrettable experiences as mistakes - more as learning experiences. I should be a fucking geniu s by now! But all my "mistakes" are mine and I've learned a helluva lot from them. As a result (sorry, said that already), I am a woman who loves her own company, doesn't need anyone else to be happy and can quite happily live on her own whilst still appreciating the company of friends and being able to flirt outrageously (professionally, even!) without the need for morning-after promises.
To sum up.. I am STRONG... I am BULLEPROOF!!
I hope you all are too xxx
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Chrysalis
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| April 01, 2010 | ||
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Congratulations Serenity Champagne is certainly justified tonight! I hope the Consent Order is agreed soon - and then it's Champagne again (or Cava at least!). Hope all goes well for you in the future. Nothing's gonna stop you now .... You can really get on with your life, uphill all the way. Take care. Chrys xx  |
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JackieH
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| April 01, 2010 | ||
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Congratulations bulletproof, yes the end is in sight. I know what you mean about your Mum. Mine was great when I went through my first divorce, sadly she died in 2005 and stbx was a wonderful support to us at the time (My daughters were devastated too to lose their Gran suddenly). Never would have believed he would go on to put us through all this just 2 years later! I am at a similar point, consent order agreed and signed by him, waiting to sign it myself and decree absolute to be applied for when consent order sent to court for approval. As soon as this is done my house will be put up for sale and I will downsize. Cheers! |
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supercali
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| April 01, 2010 | ||
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Hey Bulletproof, GO GIRL!!!!!!! Sound like a girl who is going to have a great life ahead. Cheers, have a fantastic time. Supercali xx |
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Chrysalis
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| April 01, 2010 | ||
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Sorry Bulletproof - I just realised I called you "Serenity" in my above comment, it was the heading of your blog! That's it now, you will need to change your name (I expect you are feeling pretty serene anyway after all that Champagne). Chrys xx |
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Bulletproof
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Thanks girls! Chrysalis - yes, I have another bottle of Champers waiting for when the CO comes through! And I'm still feeling pretty serene - slightly smug too, as I have no hangover Jackie - thanks for all your support, you've been through a worse time than me and I hope everything turns out fabulously for you x Supercali, you always make me smile & I think we have a similar sense of humour - slightly twisted! Looking forward to more laughs with you  Kimmi - how right you are! I will be refusing to check the 'divorced' box from now on - marriage? What marriage? LOL  |
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