Am I being over sensitive? Have spent this evening in tears. Told myself to act my age, don’t be so childish… He’s being nice, really he is being nice…………….. But then I look back and wonder is it his way of stealing and tainting the memories I have been making for my kids and I since Christmas? Number 1: son’s 18th. Spoilt the morning for son – hadn’t got the cash he promised him. Gave son something better… he got the easel he wanted that money for. We (son, daughter and me) went off for a night in a hotel and a lovely meal to celebrate son’s 18th. But he had to send a text to son –

It had to be about you, didn’t it, you couldn’t have a conversation about your son and his Student Loan application could you! Have you been to see a solicitor yet? You can start the divorce for adultery or whatever, but it’s gonna take you at least two years! And who knows when the house will sell…. Pardon? I’m trying to see a solicitor to get a letter for our son’s Student Loan application, not about divorce. I’m still waiting for a call back. And by the way I’m not coming back in. I’m living in the annex for as long as it takes. Oh and I need broadband sorting out in there – you

Today, right now, I wish I could just curl up in a ball. Today right now, this moment, I wish you’d pick up the phone and call. Today, right now I hate you And wish that feeling will last! But today, right now I know, We have too much of a shared past. Today, right now, I really, Wish I could just “move on”. But today, right now I know I need to believe you’re gone. No simple “hello” No simple “Good byes” No sweet emotions Or loving look from your eyes. So today right now, My one love, it really is goodbyes, And tomorrow will bring with it All of the many