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Oct 01
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6.45 this morning I dropped off my little girl around the STBX's as prearranged. As I am turning the car around I happen to notice "his" car.
I knocked on her door very loudly thinking irrational thoughts and dreading this day. She opens the door and I barge past heading straight for the stairs (my anger completely shot to bits), thankfully she stops me and I don't feel the urge to proceed any further, take a deep breath and turn and leave. I hear my daughter's crying as I depart and it tears me up.
I park next to his car thinking do I smash it up or not? Thankfully again something stops me and I drive off in tears.
I get home and find my Decree Nisi on the doormat :(
Thank you for all your kind texts this morning, your support is very grateful
x
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mummybear38
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| October 01, 2009 | ||
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Oh Hughie so much all in one bundle, time to sit back a minute and take stock. Totally understand the burning inside which wells into the desire to rip people's heads off - I am to the very core of me a gentle, loving person - but have been in that position myself so empathise with the racing heart, the speeding images and the desire to break. Thank God somehow you were able to remove yourself swiftly. Nisi on the doormat well just to try and cheer you up a little my decree absolute was waiting for me when I returned from work on 14th February 2007 !! Irony knows no boundaries lol. One day you will be able to put all the pain in a box and kick "$&* out of it, can't tell you when that day will be but it will come. Chin up xx |
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mumtoboys
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| October 01, 2009 | ||
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(((((Hughie))))) Well done you for keeping calm. It's gonna get better - any day now, I'm sure. xxxx |
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ThrowingMuse
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| October 01, 2009 | ||
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(((Hughie))) Thinking of you, well done for keeping your head. The Nisi is a step forward, doesn't feel that way now I know but it is and your calm reaction today shows you are making progress. Your car may be a hairdresser's one but bet it is better than his anyway  Take care Louisa xxxx |
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Sheepie
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| October 01, 2009 | ||
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((( Hughie ))) Well done for keeping control. I know exactly where you are coming from though. But keeping your dignity is the way forward. No matter how you feel. I'm laughing at myself here saying this. Cos at the weekend I had similar experience but just managed to rant and yell and wail to myself whilst sat in my car!!! It may make us feel better, venting the anger and frustration on the person we really want to, but in the long run, it may well backfire and we could end up in trouble. So we need to remember to have dignity and hold our heads up high!! lol. Thinking of you. x |
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rosiegirl
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| October 01, 2009 | ||
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Blimey what a day Hughie. Good for you for keeping control in a difficult situation. Them emotions are sure hard to deal with sometimes aren't they. You know it gets better in time, we've had that conversation before. Stay strong and keep dealing with the stuff that crops up, and moving forward. Rosie xx |
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snowdrops
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| October 01, 2009 | ||
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I'm really really proud of you hunny. A hard day for you, very painful. But just remember you have a core of friends, (well a rather motley, wanton, alcoholic crew really :-D ), who love you very much and know that you are derserving of someone who will treasure you and love you in the future. Until then we're pleased to have some of your time - even tho you don't appreciate good music ;o) xxxxxx | |
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