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Jul 31
2009
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God I hope it's wrong.Posted by jimmcv in depression loneliness, children, breaking up |
I've just run the divorce calculator. Apparently I'm going to give my STBX all bar £400 of my income soon. Wow - I hope I don't want to eat or do anything. I want her to be happy but I think this gives her £300 a week to live off while I have a ton to pay for everything. Guess I'll be living in a tent eh?
We've knocked chunks out of each other today - I no longer recognise the woman downstairs as the woman I married.
She stormed off because I suggested that when I moved back to Scotland I would look after the children half the time.
I'm typing this in bed with my kids sleeping around me in a big pile like hamsters. They are five and seven and love getting a big nest together to sleep in.
How much longer will I be able to do this? What did I do to deserve this? I took the job she wanted me to take and it's been just thrown back in my face.
24 hours ago I was stood in Pooley bridge. God it seems a long time ago now. I want to see my kids grow up and I want the next few years to fly past so I know what's going to happen.
Feel very scared - but not alone as my babies are here.

smurfy
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tiggy50
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we used to do the 'nest' thing, they won't do it now as they've grown up. Enjoy, it will be a source of strength and comfort to you for many years to come. It will improve, you are just caught in the process right now. Take it a day at a time and don't expect too much of yourself. Take care, keep in touch. x |
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