I have just had  a really bad weekend, don't know why this one was bad, nothing out of the ordinary happened, I just felt so bad, like I did at the start!  I spent the whole of Sunday crying, for no apparent reason.  Perhaps because I had spent the weekend with couples I maybe subconciously felt out of it.  I don't want stbx back after all his nonsence but I just feel so lonely!  Why after 3 months do I feel so bad? I would have thought that things would be starting to look up, but I feel like I did right back at the start.  I knew it would be up and down but I really didn't expect to feel so

This is only my third blog, and the first since January, up to this I haven't really felt like posting, finding it hard to pour out emotions when all I want to do is ignore how I was feeling and the fact that I had been rejected and betrayed.  I have tried to put him out of my mind but he keeps crawling back in and dropping little nuggets of memory that show like TV re-runs in my head and sometimes they completely overwhelm me  and I'm right back at the beginning with those feelings of total despair and not being able to live without him.  Thankfully they don't last long and I do get out of

Its 5am and I'm sitting here with the computer on my knee, reading other people's blogs and comments, today for me is another positive day, I'm glad I'm alive and that I have all my friends and family around me.  I went out tonight with friends I haven't seen since the break up, and I was really worried about how it would go, I had butterflies in my stomach heading to their house, but it was really, really good. They were friends I met through my ex, but tonight they made me realise that they are my friends, aswell as his, and I can call on them when I need to.  This has been the case with