well here we go again,no clue on how to move on.back at the co owned house.she is away it is just me and the dog.alone on american thanksgiving by choice i gues.i was invited to a couple of places butchose not to go..too many questions not enough answers.no clue on what the next step is/should be/whatever.just trading safe places where i can sleep until the dog begs me to go out.o well i have nothing to do so i will just cover upfor a few more minutes/hours etc.then i will get up and walk the dog.need a shave ..why shave??need some food ..why eat??/have a couple of beeers and some peanuts and

after living in almost total seclusion at my family home here in canada,i gues it is time to move on back to the "real world".although i would/have been "just content" wolling in my self pity,sleeping or just lying in bed,maybe coming into the little slepy city to check e mails,and play computer poker.this is no life.i have not gotten out of the self pity stage and i am getting sick and tired of being sick and tired.i have no reason to even get out of bed and when i do i just watch t v.weather is good but why even go for a walk on the beach may run into someone and have to socialize.when i do

i have not blogged in awhile but felt like talking to somebody.summer came and went the cottage where i was to start my "new life"has been sold and i am now staying in my family house on the beach.pretty lonly here but i do get into the city from time to time.problem is that i do not do anything but sleep,watch t v maybe go up to the pub for a bite  and a ballgame from time to time.the divorce came through during the summer and i did not even open the papers..what is the point i know what they say.i know that i have to move on but i am stuck in a routine that even now i am getting worried