My youngest son is having a real tough time with us grown ups. I know he is 23 years old. But he is not like any other 23 years old, he is very senstive. I feel for him so much. My husband is texing him to say he won't be home , so when i walk through the door Ian (my son) tells me that dad is not home for tea and my be out all night. This is the second time my husband as down this. (At the moment we still live in the same house, but seperate bedrooms)

Ian is playing piggy in the middle and I don't like it one bit. Not only that Ian as said that he does not want to choose between his father or

Been in a bit of a low state for the last week.  After being on the up for a bit I seem to have crashed down and struggling to get up again.  The tears are back with a vengeance and tonight I woke at 4.30 and no chance of sleep again.

It's been 3 weeks since I told him I knew about his other life.  Not had any response, no denial, no excuses, no sorry...don't know why I expect any but after nearly 22 years of marriage would like one.  I can't even discuss this or argue...just have it going over and over in my head.  Where did he go my husband?

Had the school contact me requesting daughter's

I went to court today, some 280 miles from home to allow a judge to examine the proposed consaent order. I then had to sit through 10 minutes of him telling my wife she could and should have a lot more and then gave her a number of options how to get there. He then suggested that maybe he shoudl not sign the consent order to allow her to come back later if she needed more. To my RELIEF she stuck to the agreement we had agreed privately and said that was all she wanted. He reluctantly signed it.

 My solicitor also picked up my decree absolute today so I am now officially divorced! Now all I