My last blog was about a month ago,

 I'd like to think i have moved on and in the right direction. I have more of a routine than before - as i was always waiting to do stuff with stbx.

I have started talking & chatting to other people which has taken me a while to do but i  have left it several months before doing this not like the stbx who was chatting before we had even split.

It has been so nice to wake up and not have him on my mind, but to think about something that doesnt even relate to him. The old feelings have come back every now & then but are no longer constantly in my mind.

I now

Well eventually got stbx to sit down and discuss separation agreement. As I thought she was not prepared, so I put my proposals forward and she agreed with them all apart from the car as i was willing to give her it along with the loan however she doesn't want it and neither do I so car probably going on market.

Am i being selfish as I proposed she move out, I will carry on with mortgage and if I sell she gets half the profit less half costs of any maintenance I have to do. But if I see my days out it goes to the children to do with as they wish that way neither of us is gaining financially

 Oh the spectrum of emotions!!!

its like one of those colour wheels you get in B&Q to see which colours compliment each other.Last night it was on 'pity'

Pity for him

Picture the scene (not the first scene like this either over the last few weeks)

Daughter in Law (me)

Mother in Law (over here on a visit and staying with granddaughter)

Daughter and boyfriend

Son and Girlfriend

Grandson ( 15 months)

All getting together for dinner at daughter

together!! 

Him .???.....god know where getting the 'buzz, my new life, happiness!!! from a stranger !

But do you know whats sad?

His 75 year old mother who doesnt