Feelings of sorrow flood through the walls of this fortress I have had to start rebuilding due to my carelessness with my own heart.

The ones who have hurt me are not sorry, they take on a new guise and continue to fool others who will take them into their heart.  They will think nothing of letting words of love and care fall from their mouths.

I can't believe the cruelty and callousness of people who claim to be "something more".

Tread carefully friends.  Do not let words fool you.  Words that can make you feel you can soar, only to find that there is nothing to stop your fall as you crash

Can I really be two weeks away from the final goodbye? The conveyancing solicitor achieved what the other two had spent weeks trying to negotiate -  time for me to be at the house without stbx in order to pack unmolested. Not physically, but emotionally bombarded with arrogance either angry silence/body language or outbursts of outrageous hatred.

How did he come to hate me so much just for being me and continuing to love him. Where did the hatred come from? I have asked him but he couldn't answer.

Several things he has had no answer for. Why did you never tell me you were unhappy? No reply.

I really think so...why

because today inspite of :

all the cr*p from his solicitors,

the emotional blackmail " contest my offer and you risk having to sell everything to pay the solicitors"

and the normal generalised dread that xmas is 4 weeks away and I havnt even STARTED shopping ( mind that happens every year)

inspite of all this I have had a nice, peacefull productive day

long may it