For the first time in years yesterday I took time out for myself 3 times. I had my coffee, lunch and a cup of tea in the afternoon say outside in the sun. I took the newspaper and then a book and each time made sure I sat there for 1/2 an hour.

Wow you it reminded me that I am important.  I plan on doing it again this afternoon.

my boys came home yesterday after their first week at dad's  and they are fine, i missed them badly so kept myself very busy at work doing  different  hours  and more of them.

my eldest turned 9 yesterday and spent most of the day with dad and came home at 4pm, actually ex brought them home ten mins early. two birthday parties for my son though lol, he got 2 ben ten cakes. he got one gift from dad but at least he was allowed to bring it home unlike christmas gifts. 

i could of applied for decree absolute yesterday if the finances had been sorted, ex has been dragging his heels, besides i

I got married last year October hoping that i have married the love of my life,little did i know who i was marrying. fine, we didnt court for long but he was a perfect gentleman and even when he showed the sign of violence while we were dating by hitting me over talking to my male friend, i was still encouraged to go on with the wedding since he showed a sign of remorse.

barely married 6months down the altar proclamation 'i do' ive been called all sort of names, been attacked in every area of my life by my new husband who doesnt see anything good in me, i have been beaten up several times,yet