I got up this morning and took the girls to school. I had a bad nights sleep. Everything has been going around and around in my head. A realisation, from speaking to the solicitor yesterday, that I am going to be struggling probably for the rest of my life with money.

I dont know which way to turn or what to do. He has managed to wangle out of giving me half of what the company he owns is worth even though I own 54% of it. In fact I will get one seventh of its true value. I guess I was relying on this money too much. I was believeing that at least I would have a chance of picking up the

Had a 'phone call from my sons' school at 1:30pm.  My son had asked the office to 'phone to see if I could come to the cross country run they were doing that afternoon.

So, I hottailed it to the school and spent a pleasant afternoon watching the run, and then they had a series of other vaguely sporty activities  (dribbling a football, bouncing a ball on a tennis racquet, etc.)

Nice to see my son of course, and managed to get a few hugs in whilst his friends weren't watching. 

One of the girls in his class (whose name I really ought to remember) mentioned  that she went to Guides with a mutual

There are a lot of very kind and very good people in this comunity, they have made me very welcome here I hope one day to be as strong as them all.

I am having a really bad night  and cant stop crying, I am 46 years old I have never felt pain like this before,she has hurt me in the past, done me wrong, I have cried then, but not like i cry now most of it is because I have done her wrong this time,and i have thrown it all away. God i love her.