I haven't written for a while because I seem to be like a parrot! Something is going on in my head which is making me switch off- I cannot think straight. It's almost as if some sort of protection mechanism has kicked in to stop me going mad! I feel empty, lost and lonely, despite having a good support network. Went to see 'strictly' on saturday and laughed like I haven't laughed for years- it felt good. How sad is it that I had forgotten what it felt like? Wrote a strong letter to my solicitor about my concerns about lack of progress. My ex had even had me doubting whether my solicitor was

 

24.02.09

Today was a normal day. I did my normal stuff and my wife did her normal stuff. The few things that annoyed me on top of the usual were when my youngest daughter, 3, was trying to show my wife something she'd made. It was lunch time and she called ‘mummy' 12 times before she got a response but didn't give up. She then asked my wife to ‘look what I made' a further 4 times before she got a ‘yea'. I dread to think of the effects this would have on our kids if it's me who has to leave.

 

Other than doing absolutely nothing baring sitting at her laptop all lunchtime/evening, she leaves her

My decree nisi is tomorrow. If I go straight to Absolute then I will be divorced on 14th April - which was the day my first husband died.  Got up early as usual to see my Son off to College.  Once he had left ,the house had the same sad empty feeling it has had since my husband left.  I know that in general I feel so much better, my friends all comment on how much better I look, I am loosing weight,  going out etc. so why do these strange patches of sadness so take me by surprise.  I am trying to decide whether or not to go to court tomorrow. My sol. says there is no need but I have this