I have just got back from Albert Heijn, (supermarket) and pick up dinner... for one... and am still trying to make the effort and not fall into 'chicken ding' or pizza mode... 

I have just got back into the flat and done the usual.... open the door and shout "Hi honey I am home", I smile to myself as I wait for a response, knowing that it will never come...  the strange ways that I find to amuse myself nowadays...

So I start cooking, poached salmon in white wine, and put the asparagus onto boil and pour myself a glass of Chablis.

With the exception of the bubbling water there is Silence in the

Hi Mr Blogman and wiki peeps..

i need to blog, desperate to blog........

im so down its unreal....

some of my friends of wiki know its my birthday this tuesday i will be 41...

last night a year ago exactly we had a black tie bash at our house to celebrate my 40th.....its where it all started to go wrong.....

the woman who my husband had an affair with (and is still with her) came to my bday bash and i saw them dancing together and knew then something was up..

i guess ive just been thinking about it, and how crap this year has been....

they say life begins at 40...ive said that many a time in my