Hi All and thank you for making me so welcome, I feel very at home here and hope to stick with you through my journey ahead.

Some background- Have been with stbx for 19 years in total (lived together for most of that), married for 9 of them. Im just turned 37 and I have two lovely boys aged 5 and 7. My 7 yr old has Aspergers Syndrome which is a form of autism.

Ive been unhappy for many, many years and gradually the lines of communication between us became worse and worse until we just existed together and i found it increasingly difficult to talk to him about anything. I began going out

Well , I get my kids back tomorrow after a week apart, the longest I have ever been without them since they were born. 

I get the feeling it will be emotional for me, and worry how this will make me act around their mother.  I hope I can bite my tongue, or it could get a little heated.  She will be very 'normal' about the whole, putting on an a 'I've moved on, you're nothing to me' act.  She's even trying to keep me away from where they now live, always offering to bring them & collect them.

I can only explain my current frame of mind is due to not seeing them. 

I have them

...well not tonight!

For one week, I've had chips with everything, and I'm sick of 'em

Tonight I'm making some home made spicy beef & rice.

I would have gone for a more Italian feel, but she took all the herbs, and left me with the spices!

I hope it tastes