I've finally realised that at 42 you cannot pretend to be 18.  Had the big night out last night with the boys and as expected a certain amount of beer and a curry and a late taxi back to where we were staying.  Got in about 2am and feel so tired today.  Do I need more practice?

I said last week that I am getting more questions about what I am doing and tonight is no exception.  She wanted to know all about the evening/weekend and what was said - truth is I can't remember too much and most of it was usual blokes talk about nothing.  We did discuss my situation and there seems to be a lot of

Well, managed to get through what was the anniversary of our wedding day. Had a wonderful lie in-a real rarity of late. Met up with 3 friends for lunch. Went to work for a few hrs in the afternoon and then went round to another friends ( hark at me eh-more than 1 friend-my name's certainly not 'Billy'-lol) for a lovely meal in the evening. My 3 kids all made contact to check I was ok. To be honest, I probably had a more enjoyable April 25th than I have had for many years.

My fantastic sister came to stay for the weekend, and has kept me busy. More meals out. I'm going to struggle to keep the

In two minds as to whether I write this blog or not, but need to clear my head and can't think of another way to do it.

 Those of you that know, then you will understand more of what I am saying, those of you that don't, I apologise.

 I sent a text to my new boyfriend yesterday only to get an abusive text back asking who I was.

I knew his ex-girlfriend was at his house and knew the text was from her. It is a long and personal story and feel bad even writing this blog, but I need to keep a little bit of sanity.

 So why do I feel like the other woman?

I have complete trust in my man, he wouldn't