I am on a downer this morning and so far it is lasted 9 hours.  Woke up at 3.00 am and couldn't get back to sleep.  I don't know what it is like to have a normal night's sleep any more as I haven't slept properly since hubby left at the start of November.  I go to bed absolutely knackered and then bing I wake up any time from 0230 onwards.  All that goes through my mind is my situation, how to get myself to a better place emotionally, what I would love to say/do to him and her etc etc. 

 Anyway back to work now

My oven door handle came off in my hand tonight. I was in the middle of cooking dinner and bang there it was. I was upset to say the least. It is part of the fixtures and fittings and obviously I will have to pay for it to be fixed if I can't do it. The screws have gone down between the outer and inner door liner.

I was upset.... I am so fed up with working all the hours god makes and when something like this goes wrong, yes it does throw me. Just more unnecessary expense.
I felt all overwhelmed - it wasn't fair. The door had been wobbly from day one but stupidly I had not made a note of it in

ok, so maybe it is a bit of a crap day.
Friday my stbx gave me the separation papers her attorney had drawn up and also sent to my attorney. She said: do you want to review this today & we'll talk about it later? Or wait until Sunday? I said lets wait. (So I'm going to review these with her tonight. yippie.)

I started to read them friday night, but it was a real downer, I won't lie. I'm "there" emotionally wanting the divorce to be over with, but the clinical dissection (sp?) of bills, accounts, assets, blah blah blah is a pain is the ass. Cause now, you have to look at this stuff with