He's been gone since May, and i've hit rock bottom and started working my way up again now i'm taking anti depressants. I haven't even been on here in a few weeks as it reminds me of what is really happening in my life and i've been happier living in ignorance for a while.

For no reason over the last few days i've had a few really bad days again, feel teary, snappy, angry... all those emotions that I had put away for a while have come back.. and today it's my wedding anniversary... ha ha bloody ha!!

Please somebody make me smile again......

Feeling sad a huge big hug winging its way to you. My wedd ann was a few weeks ago and I was a complete wreck, but I have been in chat loads and they kept me going. It is tough as emotions keep popping up all over the place and just won't do as they are told!!!!

Tomorrow isn't your wedding ann so why not do something wacky/fun/whatever to celebrate your 'you deserve better and are worth it day'!!!!!!! I dunno, buy a chocolate fountain and make youself sick? Have a manicure or just do something daft like walk up to a stranger smile and say hello.


Hug yourself loads, eat well and wiki hugs to you.
xxx

hi feelingsad

Sorry to hear you're having a tough time. It is amazing how quickly good feelings can evaporate and leave a crumpled mess!

I still have days when I feel like I'm not really living this and expect him to walk in the door. I function now when I'm occupied and my situation is not always at the front of my mind. But anything that brings the reality hurtling back into focus brings me down like nothing else.

Anniversaries seem to be a really difficult time..you only have to look through the blogs to see that. For me it's a day that stood for so much, and now means even more....all the memories and hopes you had with a big "NOT" next to them. It's not surprising you've been feeling as you do.

My next anniversary (NOT 25th) will also be the day I knew I would file for divorce. How mixed up is my next one going to be!

Look after yourself, and let the rollercoaster take you on and out the other side of the dip. So glad anniversaries are only once a year!

Keep posting.
fm xx

FeelingSad ((((hugs)))) to you. Anniversaries are always a bad day after a split but somehow you just have to get through them. Try to keep busy & active & pamper yourself lots!! You deserve the best in life & never forget that! Hoping tomorrow is a much better day for you & brings a smile to your face!
Stay strong,
Cindy