Thought I would try blogging - tried everything else!!

Been here, off and on, since WIKI began. Whilst wiki has come on in leaps and bounds, I am stuck in the same living nightmare as when it all began 21 months ago.

He is back in the country now, still not responding to sol's letters, still trying to cicumvent the system.

So - where do I summon up the strength to go on? and should I?   Not exactly made a briliant job of it so far, so maybe time to call it a day and ship out and take what comes. Got to be better than just getting by and waiting for the next

morning Mr B and wiki pals.

so last night, he came round, at about 7ish and left at 11.45.

we cried for england both of us....so sad......he's not with his g/f anymore it would seem and now living back wth parents.

he's told me what he wants and thats to sell the house - he doesnt want me to have to get a lodger in, says its not fair on me ? no he's right there...

i didnt tell him what i wanted, i said this was his night to talk to me and to tell me his requirements....all very business like, i wrote a few things down and he said he felt like he needed a solicitor, we both laughed, with me

I think this has been the worst week I have ever had. After my last blog where he said he didn't love me I hit the bottom. I wouldn't commit suicide but it's what my brain was telling me to do, I was throwing up, non stop crying and well you all know what it's like. It got worse on friday as my 15yr old had enough and went to my sisters. Before people think why didn't I go to the dr before to get help, I couldn't, I was waiting for a medical report to be done for a new job that I start on 1st Oct, I need the job as it is my fresh start and without it I can't afford mortgage. The report was