My daughters birthday today.Have had pleasant day, but this evening when she saw s2bx he went out with daughter to the pub(my suggestion),but took his 'girlfriend' along.I am just so hurt by this.I can't see why my daughter should be with him and her on her birthday when it was me that had her,me that has been there for her, me that peacekeeped to get her and her add together for the birthday, and he has to drag his woman with him.Its not fair, and not on.

Another first..this time last year we were together we were rowing and yes he was with his other woman but I thought that we were working

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I am getting a bit behind with myself....

yesterday wasn't good again and was good!

He got up and went golf it was an the last important match of the scratch team.  If they lost they were relegated to another division. 

I saw him go off - at about 7 (he hadn't come in til 2-ish still don't know where he was then)

I think that is my problem  - I watching his every move etc and I haven't got together enough to get a life! I need to stop thinking about him and think about my self and what I want to do etc.  Easier said that done.

I text him good luck and he text back.

I text him in the

I call this one has the world gone mad.  And by world yes it is a metaphor for my stbx, she was my world, she still is my world and I will only believe that she is not the day that my last breath leaves me.

For those who may have read previous info and maybe been in the chat room you will know that I returned from Tokyo on friday night to Holland and spent a night in the flat.  I called "home" and spoke to the kids - love them to pieces...  Stbx was odd and asked me where I was, I flippantly said I do not think that it concerns her.

This was primarily a response to what she said to me mid week