I had some 'me' time today doing normal stuff - putting the upcoming divorce to one side just for today.  I spent the day just messing about on a boat (its a guy thing girls - like a shed but bigger - OH never understood - or wanted to, so I am safe with my boat) - fixed all the little things that needed doing - might even get on the water tomorrow.

And tonight, I feel at peace

So much has happened over the last few weeks.
> The highs and lows
> The anger
> The panic
> The tears
> Thinking about others and what they think
> Not thinking about others and what they think
> Discovering passion again
>

Hi wikimates

 Today is my wedding anniversary... 7 years since we married. After the blog I wrote the other day, I have to confess, I was dreading this day.

But this afternoon I put Mishmash on the train and went to get my haircut - time for a new style, I thought. And you know what? I feel great! When I came home, my son had bought me some flowers (just because he's lovely) and he looked at my hair and said "It makes you look younger..." - he has no idea the effect of those words. Yes, I know I shouldn't focus on my age but I probably will anyway.

 It's quiet without Mish... but it's been

One small step for a man, one giant leap for his mental health

Sorry for the terrible miss-quote.

First of all something about how I regard my job and myself - I regard myself as a professional person doing a job that I love with dedication, enthusiasm and with a passion, It was a moment of great despair when I learnt of the stbx's immenant departure and being sent home from work being unable to do the job I loved so much. It was the correct decision as I would have been unable to continue.

Today was the first day back, it was great, my self esteem returned, my passion returned, I was wanted for