In six weeks I will be able to do 100 consecutive push ups and I'm following this program http://www.hundredpushups.com/week1.html. I started today - anyone else in? Write in the comments if you are in for the push up challenge. Then we can hold each other accountable!

I was feeling pretty sorry for myself this morning. Shed a few tears and was feeling very blue. Two guys from my men's group texted me to check up on me which was very nice. I know I have to take the time to feel sad. I'm doing it.

I'm going out with a friend tonight and then meeting another one tomorrow at the beach. It's

I'm in a funny place. I do feel very sad right now. Sad at where my marriage is and the impact that has on my kids. Sad about the assumptions I made during my marriage and how wrong I was about certain beliefs. Just very sad about where things sit today and what's going to happen in the short term. I've read that with men they will often use anger to mask sadness because it's ok for a man to be angry but not ok to be sad. So I am taking the time to be sad. The positivity always comes through though. I do feel sad but ultimately I sweep it away by feeling good about the future. I feel grateful

Things are beginning to move now. The divorce petition has been lodged with the court, the silly and expensive backward and forward letters between solicitors have stopped, the house has been valued, financial statements are just about prepared etc etc. And things are calm. It has been a long haul to get here, there have been some awful days, and I have been the one that has dragged it out because I did n't want a divorce, but I tried my best to put it right but without by stbx's willingness to try it was always doomed. Would I do the same again? probably, because I've always believed that