Hi Wikipeeps.

Well, its official, me and him are trying to work things out.  Since our wedding anniversary (25 August) we have been talking.... and talking .... and talking! In fact we have probably spoken more in the last two weeks than we have in 2 years.

I can't pretend its easy .... its dammed difficult to hear some of the home truths, and I know he feels the same but he has taken things on the chin, so Ive had to do the same. 

We are taking it slowly and thats good, if not a little frustrating!!  Its weird though to sit in a room with the man Ive been with for 22 years, and be so 'remote'

Well he doesn't love me, its official. He doesn't know who he wants or where his life is going. She (barmaid) doesn't know he has been trying to sort things  out(well she does as I told her) and he isn't sure who he wants now. He said tonight he needs to talk to his mum when she is over from cyprus next week to help him work out what to do. He was honest tonight about how close they are and currently non sexual. He speaks to her most days he said. Sorry can't write more at mo as so upset. finish tomorrow, will finish

Well took the lead and today is d-day. Tonight we are going to sit down and talk. Tonight I need answers. He is going to have to talk about her, his feelings for me and everything else. I cannot cope with this anymore. Got about 2 hrs sleep again last night and am struggling to even focus on basic simple things. I feel shaky and sick and cannot carry on like this. I need answers.

Tonight he has to make a decision. Properly sort things out with me or that is it. I am taking control. He is coming over at 6pm, he knows why.

Just not sure how I will keep going till 6pm tonight, it feels like