So, life goes on. One day at a time. I have been very busy lately and maybe too busy. Out with friends, out for work, just out. Probably not enough time alone to think and process. I was out last night for a work dinner which I had to do and then met set friends at a club. I couldn't believe just how not into the club I was. There were lots of nice ladies to chat with but I just wasn't interested (or interesting to be honest). So I bailed and went home. I good idea I think. I like myself and who I am. I have gotten to know myself better over the last year and I think that is a very good

Hiya Just to let you guys know that if you ever feel like chatting with an old hand at this carry on (tongue in cheek) then please do not hesitate to contact me, I've been here for a very long time although not recently and have now come out the other end, done lots of things (not gonna say I regret them) and been many places to get to this stage but I'm now very happy and dare I say it "content" with my lot, I even love myself now! :) I do have a new partner and I know you will have prob heard this many a time but I know in my heart and soul that he is just so good for me and hopefully he

For the past few days i have been telling her I dont want her back, i dont love her any more and I dont care what she thinks happened in the past as it is now not relevant as she has filed for divorce. The future matters now. But... I do care what people think of me... her lies and the fact that some of the mud will stick is upsetting. I do still care for her .... is that love... who knows! Do i want her back... hmmm i think we are beyond that now. More dragging up the past emails today. Telling me i need help! Telling me I am angry... I have been quite calm about it