I haven't been here for a while.  I've been having too much fun.

 So, where am I now?

When I first arrived here in February, or whenever it was a lifetime ago, I was a total mess.  My wife was throwing me out, and it felt like twenty years was just counting for nothing.  I was still in love with her, and I couldn't see a future without her.  

Now, six months or so later, I'm a changed man.  Happy, lively, confident, and enjoying every day.   I'm more creative than I've been for twenty years, I go out regularly, I see more of my friends, and, truly, I couldn't be more content.  I get on better

It's been a good day on the whole.  I have talked on the phone to the kids and they are fine. They talk about lots of things, except one. No mention of the flooosie. You'd think she wasn't there!

I 've been thinking about what the new situation might mean (with regards to her existence being known to the kids) . Dodgy ground. It is possible she will start making an appearance at activities when he's with the kids and I will have to cope with seeing her on my territory... it isn't usually an issue. 

I picture our friends weighing us up, deciding she is very likeable and FUN and that they can

Well after my self administered kick up the butt it appears to have worked a bit. Writing down everything I have got compared to the downside of losing an idiot who has caused me more hurt than anything ever was great. Still hurting but it made me see life goes on. Shame I wasted so many weeks sobbing and unable to do anything, but I am made of meaty stuff and made the decision yesterday that I have a life to get on with. I know there will be tough days ahead and I accept that but I have a great life and it's going to get better. I know you wiki peeps here to help with the tough days, 19yrs