I was thinking today and it occurred to me, that if 16 weeks ago someone had told me I would be part of an online support group .... I would have thought they were barmy.

The old me thought that all things internet related like chatrooms, forums and blogs etc, were ... well... a bit weird.  Well surely they are all full of weirdo, internet geek, saddo type people werent they???

 How wrong I was!!!

Since I first landed at Wiki 15 weeks ago, it has been my new best friend!  It has given me security, friendship and knowledge..... three things I desperately needed in the early days. 

I was able to

I'm sure I've heard it said that men marry women that remind them of their mother's. I could be wrong, but somewhere in my sub-concious I've heard that said.

So, what is my mother like?

Well, just about everyone that should be dear to her has walked away from her.

Her husband, her children and her grandchildren. All have either left her or have distanced themselves from her. That's a lot of people, 13 in all.

If I was here, I'd be staring to look at the common denominator in all of this, but I'm not her. She choses the life she leads, and is certainly too old to change anything, even if she

I've woken up today and felt a wave of desire come over me to "Write It Down".

 You see, nearly a year ago something happened in our house (which I'll write about later).

 In my eyes, what happened was, well - extra-ordinary.

So upset by it was I at that time, I took myself off to the doctors. I had been meaning to go anyway, I'd been feeling low up until that point anyway and needed to chat with someone about the levels of my drinking that had been rising.

 I suppose like all qualified people, she did something quite clever. Of course the drinking is a bad idea, but what's important is what's