Well this is my first ever blog I haven't a clue what i'm doing, So here goes... I've been married for 18 yrs I have 4 children 3 boys 15 22 & 25 & 1 daughter she is 17

I accidently stumbled across wiki by accident & i'm sure glad tht I did as I was feeling pretty low.

Last august my husband came home & announced tht he didn't love me anymore & tht he was leaving me as I never showed him no signs of love & affection. He is a lorry driver & he spent most of the week away from home, Myb only being home 1 or 2 nights a week & tht is how things have been for years. He did start a new job in jan 07

My story sorry its so long it is just nice to write it down

I decided to divorce my husband on dec the 12th 2007 after trying to explain to him how his use of the internet was destroying our relationship. I am not a prude and would have loved a healthy relationship! But the internet was something which I did not want part of but it seemed to take over his whole life. He downloaded porn all the time and excluded me from having a normal relationship with him.... When I opened my heart to him and cried and  tried to explain how it made me feel, degraded, unloved, dead from the neck down,

Sunday. 16th March, would have been my 4th wedding anniversary. It was not a day that I was looking forward to, the weeks leading up to Sunday were painful and difficult. I seemed to be paralysed by my own emotions, my  heart weigthing heavier with each passing day. I did think about my husband on this day, and I know that he will have struggled too, but he has his own ways of trying to cope. I know that we are now apart, that there is no going back, but still I thought of him, as I think of him most days, and I know that he too has his own pain and emtional anguish, and   I am sorry for the