new and scared

Hi all

Im new on here but i hope you dont mind listening

Myy hubby of 22 years has walked away and left me

I dont know why or were he has gone he did not contact kids for ten days and now has only sent one text to the eldest

I feel like im breaking in two .i wonder what i have done thats so wrong and why he does not want to be with me anymore

The children want answers i cant give them

the pain is undescibable.

he has been strange for a couple of months but i never expected this

thanks for listening

must stop im crying

I apologise from the outset if this is hard reading and totally understand if you stop reading now. This is going to be hard to write but I have to do it for my own sake. This blog entry is for me, to work through thoughts and feelings that have been brought to the forefront.

Today's session of my course was all about the sexual controller. In comparison to others on my course I was lucky; yes lucky that I wasn't subjected to what they had to endure throughout their marriage.

It is a hard thing to accept, that the man you married; the man you had children with could treat you in such a way. To

Sounds a cliche but I never thought this would be happening to me! Im new tothis lark so please bare with me. The saga of my marriage and the pain of its ending seem to be obliterating all I loved and cared for in and about my husband. And I desperately dont want this to be the case - I dont want the end to mar 18 years of best friends, 15 years of marriage and affect our 3 children (although I am not too niave to know that it will undoubtably affect them.) I dont want my marriage to end and I guess Im at the begining of the process of accepting this - as the joke goes I am in Egypt in D'