So, it is Tuesday and another session of the Freedom Programme.

 I don't feel as if I am getting the same out of the course as I did in earlier weeks. The group dynamic changes from week to week and  I feel as is the facilitators are not offering as much detail as they did in the earlier sessions.

I have tried reflecting on this and have come to a conclusion:

 I believe that the feelings I have voiced in my blogs since starting this course have been drawn from 2 sources; firstly I have no doubt that this course has focused my mind and made me face up to the abuse I suffered / am suffering at the

The story so far;

I have always worked shifts, and my stbx has allways known that, and has gotten use to it. over the past 5 years i have been working away, first with the navy then with the railways, it was allways sadness when i'm gone and happyness upon returning. all that changed a few months ago, i was only getting calls on the phone if she wanted anything, or to complain that i was allways away, or that she needed more space??

on the third of april the penny dropped

I had been working away on west coast, my normal patch being the east, therefore had to lodge at lancaster, 2 weeks earlier I