I have no idea how he managed to track it down, but he has and he's read it from start to finish. He was aware of my membership for this site, and my user name is basically my own name so I guess it wouldn't take much, but I feel strangely violated.

He admitted this morning that he'd read it. Apparently it has make him realise the hurt his actions have had on our family, the repercussions of his behaviour. He wants to meet up tonight to discuss our future.

He also now knows I've been seeing someone else; I'm mortified he's had to find this out via an online blog.

I won't be censoring my writing

Well this is a new one for me - never thought I'd end up doing this sort of thing.

Thing is though I'm wandering if there is anyone out there who has ended up getting themselves into such a rediculous situation as I have. So here is the expidited version of my current situation.

Married for 17 years - aged 46. 1 child - daughter 14 and a half (always imprtant - the half!!). Wife has affair 3 years ago - I find out - she gives me the whole kick in the gonads - don't love you any more etc etc want a divorce. I accomodate and 3 mths later she is out leaving daughter with me. She never wanted to

One of the best pieces of advice I was given, shortly after I left my ex, was to ask for some professional counselling. I was given this advice by a colleague who is also a divorcee, who had benefitted from this himself during the time of his marriage break-up. I'm lucky that I have health insurance through work so I thought I would take advantage and make an appointment with my GP.

To make this as succinct as possible - I cried all over my GP whilst explaining the situation and asking for a referral. He couldn't have been nicer, gave me the details of a psychiatrist and said he would be