Had a good day with my girls. We were supposed to be going to see a war memorial (! DD is interested in her great great uncle who was on HMS Hood and has been learning about it all etc - not that I usually take them to a war memorial for a day out! lol) As it was awful weather we have rain-checked literally until tomorrow.

So we went and did some pottery painting, made a choc cake and some scrummy Jamie soup.

STBX ranted at me this morning when I went to collect them, not polite enought to him (am not rude just not anything to say and always ends in row so I stay at distance) then texted me to

Why does he keep doing this to me?

Checked my bank account today, no sign of monthly CSA payment, so I ring them and they say he hasn't paid and that they will chase it up. My mortgage payment is due on Monday and I am dreading having to phone them to say once again I can't pay because I am beholden to my ex-husband to make up a large amount of the mortgage payment. Without the money from the CSA it is a case of pay the mortgage or feed the children for the month.

It really is that simple!

He has contact with the children on Friday. Will he mention not paying, I doubt it and I won't because we

Blogging again.... Here I am again, was really looking forward to today with my Grandad but things went a bit pear shaped!! Met up with him at my Aunts, had cake and coffee then drove him home to my home town( where I met s2bx0 26 yrs ) Have been "home" a few times since finding out 4 months ago about "her" and all been well as leave motorway, then back country roads and bingo..Grandad's house. Not today..Major water leak that diverted us right through the town..massive traffic jam that we crawled in and stopped outside the spot where we had our first date, the pub where we had our first