My mum knows, my eldest brother and three friends know that he left two nights ago. But there is a whole world of people who don't know that MrP has left. (it took me about ten minutes to think of what to call him. Not his name, not himself, not stbx, not his nicknames...) I need to come up with a short and to the point paragraph that I can just repeat when necessary. If I craft one here, unemotional, non judgemental, purely informative, I think it will help me in the long run. Then I won't be victim to whatever emotion I will be in thrall to at that moment in time. 'MrP has left the

Am I being over sensitive? Have spent this evening in tears. Told myself to act my age, don’t be so childish… He’s being nice, really he is being nice…………….. But then I look back and wonder is it his way of stealing and tainting the memories I have been making for my kids and I since Christmas? Number 1: son’s 18th. Spoilt the morning for son – hadn’t got the cash he promised him. Gave son something better… he got the easel he wanted that money for. We (son, daughter and me) went off for a night in a hotel and a lovely meal to celebrate son’s 18th. But he had to send a text to son –

Well, maybe I'm an idiot - ok, I probably am - but I went on my second first date since this all started. It was really fun. We went for a walk by the lake, then out for some cheap Thai food. We closed out the restaurant and then talked until 1:00am in the parking lot. We'll see each other again. She had breast cancer a few years ago and her husband had an affair while she was in treatment. Wow, I was gobsmacked. Some of the stuff she's been through I can honestly say "I know what you mean". Anyway, she's very cute and I think we'll have a good time. I will be honest and genuine with her as I