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I've been back at work after 2 weeks off & things feel alright at the moment. My son seems happy at school as well which is a relief, but he did his homework without being reminded which is a little disturbing to say the least! Lol!

I saw a friend this evening & she is amazed at the difference she sees in me. She sees a vast improvement both physically & emotionally. Her reflections have helped me to recognise my own progress. My 'down days' exist, but not in the same way as they did 2 months ago, & I feel a sense of relief in this. Yes, my mood swings are still here, but I feel they

When I met up with Bob on Tuesday, it was the first time for a while.

I'd been keen to fill him in on the latest, the latest being the fact that I'd found support in this website.

For a long time I've been thinking of having an affair. It would be my way of demonstrating to myself that not all women were as selfish, unreasonable and controlling as the one I'd married.

There are special websites for married people who want to have an extramarital affair, but without losing their marriage. In fact, I'd even asked if I could use his credit card to pay for a membership so that it wouldn't  show on

I'd been so looking forward to yesterday. Silly really, but the kids had been around me so much (especially H because she'd finished school in May), that I really needed "ME TIME".

Yesterday, they were back at school! At last! ...and her, COW as I've nicknamed her, was at work, and I had the whole house to myself.

Now, I'd taken a bit of time here, and a little time there, to start - and bring up-to-date - this blog. I was almost at the point where all the crap highlights from the past had been entered, the history had been written about so-to-speak, and this blog was then ready for my