Its been 3 months since my partner and I separated so abrubtly and I'm really trying to move on but its soooooooo hard.

 I'm going out tonight with a friend and leaving our child with a baby sitter as the last time I went out and xp  baby sat (hate that term - she is her child too) she told me off for coming home late ! and I said sorry!  This means she will be at her new place with her new gf and its driving me mad.  I know I'm putting too much wasted energy into trying to break them up or spoil things when I should be concentrating on me - so Mama Mia here I come.

 Its hard to believe that

Back to reality

Well I'm back after 2 weeks away at our house in France and I'm feeling a bit down today...... It was fabulous to run away from my problems for a couple of weeks......   but I'm back and there all still here waiting for me. I was hoping that somehow it would all have gone away ........... I suppose I will just have to face facts and get on with sorting things out myself.

The first 2 days the x2b was there and it was hard but I smiled and was happy and I got through it. I kept thinking of all my wiki mates willing me on and your support was fantastic. (you know who you are) so

just got back on Sunday.Took my son camping with a friend and her children.Weather was appaling and we tried to make the most of it, but her kids were badly behaved and i was glad to come home.A few times before i fell asleep at night I was sad,thinking of how different everything was,but mostly I am sad for my son, who again asked if me and his dad would be getting back together again, and this almost a year on from the split.Of course while I was away s2bX spoke to son on mobile, and then text me?couldn't and still can't work out why he should want to tell me he and his girlfriend and