You will all be pleased to know that my black whingy crying mood has passed and I am now back to being me.  I had an unremarkable but good day at work.  What has helped me feel better is the kind and encouraging remarks of wikipeeps and the sympathy of Sarah (IKNOWHOW) in chat last night.  Hadenoughnow, Luckyfist, Poppie, Fitbird, Anuska, Determined, Sarah and Julian,  you are all stars coming to my aid in my hour of need. 

 It was just my wobbly day took me by surprise because I had not had one for ages, and I felt it quite bad. 

I am now feeling really good, more attractive and even dare I

This is an interesting one. Perhaps a turning point. She told me she was going out on Saturday night and was staying out until Sunday evening. I don't know who she stayed with - I actually don't care - but what's interesting is that she's not keeping up any pretence any more. Probably quite healthy.

And this evening on her return, she seemed a little less uptight. I think that because we've given up on mediation, which means that there's no forum for her to plan personal attacks on me other than by costly solicitor's letter, she's less hostile. For example, when I adjusted the schedule on the

morning Mr B and wiki pals.

so last night, he came round, at about 7ish and left at 11.45.

we cried for england both of us....so sad......he's not with his g/f anymore it would seem and now living back wth parents.

he's told me what he wants and thats to sell the house - he doesnt want me to have to get a lodger in, says its not fair on me ? no he's right there...

i didnt tell him what i wanted, i said this was his night to talk to me and to tell me his requirements....all very business like, i wrote a few things down and he said he felt like he needed a solicitor, we both laughed, with me