Just another day...

Everyday, whenever I check email, I am so scared of .... if there is email from my husband. because it is nasty...then always money money money how much he paid or something like that.

Married for 6 years... but the value of marriage is the amount how much you spent money? For him, yes it is... He doesn't know what is Love... so sorry for him.

I always cooked meal for him using fresh vegetables etc... NEVER bought micro-wave or frozen food. Always fresh home making.    British, Spanish, Italitan, Indian, Mexican, Chinese and Japanese...any dishes I cook...with love.

But he

I have been talking to s2bx on the phone, after trying unsucessfully for a face to face meeting.After I found out that he missed a few payments on the life insurance policy and mortgage I wanted to know what was happening,as I don't want the house repossessed and if either of us drop down dead the life insurance to be paid out.Finally sorted it out with him and he had been arranging to pay the outstanding payments back.So that is a weight off my mind, even though I find it hard to trust him, as why if he can make overpayments to catch up on payments could he not have simply paid things in the

My new motto ....never turn down an opportunity to connect. (Does not apply to stbx though)

It's funny how sometimes things happen and you just feel the timing is so spot on, it must mean something. So it seemed very fitting when an e-mail from Friends Reunited popped into my inbox today announcing a profile update  on an old friend. We were best friends at school, but have really only exchanged Christmas cards since.

The last few days I have been thinking how much energy it had taken to keep my marriage going. I didn't notice it at the time, in the sense that I have always believed