Well, maybe I'm an idiot - ok, I probably am - but I went on my second first date since this all started. It was really fun. We went for a walk by the lake, then out for some cheap Thai food. We closed out the restaurant and then talked until 1:00am in the parking lot. We'll see each other again. She had breast cancer a few years ago and her husband had an affair while she was in treatment. Wow, I was gobsmacked. Some of the stuff she's been through I can honestly say "I know what you mean". Anyway, she's very cute and I think we'll have a good time. I will be honest and genuine with her as I

Nothing to do with my divorce, however just to get away from it all I went to stay with a friend of mine "up north" this weekend, well up north from where I live. He moved up there about a year ago and this was the first time I had been. We have known each other for over 30 years and both of us are horsey, he is a very experienced horseman and trains to grand prix level, I am a happy hacker - we meet somewhere in the middle - he tries and fails to bring me up to his level, I steadfastly stay significantly below that :) It was pure bliss, I arrived by train on Friday evening and he

Really, I don't want to get divorced but I also don't want to be married to her. She and the kids came back from 9 nights in California and they all looked great. Had a fun vacation and all very happy. I am pleased they had such a good time and it was so good to see the kids. My wife looked great too. Today I was thinking about where we are and how we got here. It all still seems unreal. When I say I don't want to be divorced I mean that I don't want to be separated from my kids. I don't want the pain of getting unmarried. I don't want the financial pain of dividing everything. I don't want